A year without you! I never thought I'd survive a year with the pain of your loss...but I have...we all have. It hasn't been easy though. Sweetheart, not being able to see you , hear your voice...has been the most incredibly difficult and painful experience of my life. You are missed by so many...loved by so many! If you could have only known how very much your presence touched our lives! You were the light of my life from the moment you were born! And now...life without you is a struggle. But you are in my heart every minute of every day and in my memories...you were the brightest of the bright! I remember talking with you when you were just a little baby and you'd look at me as though you understood every single word I was saying...and I think you did! What an incredible mind you had! What a caring heart! I suppose I'll never really understand what took you to the tracks in the wee hours of that morning one year ago...but I can't stop trying to understand. Oh Honey, I just want to be able to turn back time...I want you HERE...WITH ME...WITH YOUR MOM, YOUR BROTHER, YOUR AUNT PAGE...! That's selfish I know...I miss you...I love you...my heart cries every day. You're in a better place I know...and God has his plan...I know that too...but it just doesn't make sense to me...Your life on this earth was all too short...but you made a difference Darlin'...I honestly believe the world is a better place because you were here! Smile... AND you'll live on Darlin'...in our minds, in our hearts, in soft breezes tangerine trees, ocean waves, sunrises, sunsets, rainbows and butterflies! Your memory is very much ALIVE! "I love you a lot...and a little bit"...Remember that Aly? You always used to say..."Do you know how much I love you Nini?" and I would say "How much?" and you would answer "I love you a lot...and a little bit"..."D" asked me, "Nini, I know Aly isn't alive anymore but I miss her, Why doesn't God let her come back for a vist?" How do I answer that one? And then he said, "Nini, is it true that God can do anything?" Of course I said yes...then he said..."Then why doesn't he put Aly's spirit back in her body?" I wish I had the answers! I LOVE YOU ALY!

That's what your Nini always called you. Aly, not a day goes by that I don't think about you and miss you. I have so many memories of the times we spent together. One is of the week you spent with me when I lived in Huntington Beach. We went to the beach, Knott's Berry Farm, and you would use my laptop at night to talk to your friends on MySpace. I didn't really get it then but knew you enjoyed it. Can you believe I have a MySpace page now AND a FaceBook page! I love you and I miss you! I truly hope that you are at peace and with Mimi, Uncle Chuck, etc.