Amber Nicole Martin Tribute

I couldn't even attend your funeral amber. I'm absolutely heartbroken. I am looking through your page here and just bawling. I remember dying your hair that dark color with your basketball pictures and watching my mom "trim" it haha. Or you parading around the house in your uniform when you got it. I remember sitting outside your high school waiting for you to come back from games or pick you up from practice. I remember all those chats on the way home and the things you were going through.

I'm mad at myself. I'm mad for not showing you enough love. I'm sorry. That day you were walking down the street and I picked you up, I should have never taken you to get gas or back to that truck. I should have taken you to my house and sat you down for a serious wakeup call. I'm sorry I didn't.

I can't even deal with this or let it sink in too far. It hurts way too much.

You are going to missed more than you will ever know. You will always be one of my sisters. I don't want to leave this off on such a horribly sad note..so these are my happy memories of the time I lived with Amber...

-essence telling you that you have a butt chin the first time she met you.

-sitting on the couch together watching every episode of beauty and the geek and the bachelor season

-me having to babysit everyone in the house while anna was in her "diaper" stage and everyone was acting awful...you had such a heart to help and always came to my rescue

-when i moved to okeechobee, i had no friends or no one to really even talk to...you went to tribulation house with me and never left my side. you'd bring me home a huge mountain dew every night when i'd pick you up or you'd come home from gators...you sure made me feel welcomed and at home.

- you making hardly anything on allowences and chores...volunteering to wash my car for extra cash and then spending it on your family and the other girls...you were so self-less and so giving.

i can't continue this anymore...i don't blame you though amber for what happened. you know i love you with all my heart.