babies lost through miscarriage Tribute

In memory of my son, Jason Neil Hackney, It has been 40 years since I lost you by miscarriage. I cried when my body let you go and I still for our loss, both yours and mine. You were so very tiny and no one would have recognized who you were or what you were to become but me. Know that I love you and you have never been forgotten. Love Mom

Daddy and I were ecstatic when we found out you would be our first baby. You made me feel special, just by being a part of me. At only 13.5 short weeks of pregnancy, you slipped away. We were able to hold you for several precious minutes and to me those have been the most sacred moments of my life. I had such beautiful plans for our life together, but those dreams were cut short. Your precious little soul changed my life forever. We miss you each and every day but we know that you are looking after us as we try for another sweet baby. Until we meet again, we find peace knowing that you have a brother and sister there with you, Kaia and Kohen. The three of you consume our heart and soul. We love you and miss you forever. Mama and Daddy

From day one i talked to you and sang to you. It were as if you were already here. At 7weeks of pregnancy you were taken up to heaven from me. I miss you. I miss the funny feelings you would give me in my belly. I miss everything about you. I hope your having fun up in heaven. Me and daddy will always love you <3 xxxxxxxxx

I only had you for 7-8 weeks but your memory will live on forever, even when years pass i will still think of you. Every night you are in my thoughts, in my mind, i just want to hold you, see your face, i wish i could have felt your kick against me. You will never have experienced life, it makes me ache inside knowing you will never run around, talk or draw cute little pictures but i'm glad you won't feel heartache or get injured. I really wish i had you now Zach.

2004 It was a surprise to see a positive line on that HPT but I was filled with Joy. I started speaking to you right away singing and reading stories. Mommy and daddy were so excited. At 12 weeks I awoke with terrible cramps and spotting I held my head in my hands crying knowing this wasn't that way it was suppose to be. Ultrasound confirmed there was not only one baby but two twins. Twins without heartbeats. Over the next two years would prove to be the hardest for my husband and I 4 single baby miscarriages all ending around 12weeks all after we seen heartbeats.I was hurting to a point of wanting to give up my dream of becoming a mother. It all seemed to hard for me to emotionally keep doing this myself to my marriage but with gods great mercy and love he gave me the strength to hold on and keep praying about the desire to be a mother. We had done everything fertility , shots, and nothing looked hopeful. I then found out I was pregnant again and with a surprise not one, not two, but three babies. Triplets I wasn't scared of that word I was scared that twelve weeks was approaching. Twelve weeks sixteen weeks twenty weeks thirty weeks thirty five weeks all passed all babies were doing wonderful for the first time I started planning on leaving the hospital with three perfect babies. At 36 weeks I woke up and was having cramps spotting and I didn't feel movement. I fell to my knees and told my husband I can't do this I can't! I had a motherly instinct something was wrong. Ultrasound confirmed that baby a baby b had no heartbeat but baby c he was barely holding on. My angel babies were born first both girls Madison and Avery. They were beautiful dark hair and perfect noses and mouths. They looked just a like. Then my son baby c was born rushed to the nicu he wasn't breathing but god had bigger plans for him plans for him to come home with mommy and daddy. A.struggle it was leaving the hospital leaving my son there in the arms of the nurses and doctors. Going home to plan funerals for his sisters. It was a mix of emotions I was sad but happy angry but thankful. We got to bring him home eight weeks later what a blessing he is now three what and a handful . A handful of determination and joy. I can't wait to tell him how strong and determined he was to live. When I share my story people ask eight babies? How did you do it? With the love and mercy of my savior. Today as I type this I wipe tears from my face because the pain is still so real. I also must tell you though I have been blessed with another son and a daughter without any complications during pregnancy or birth. Three angels on earth and eight in heaven the Lord keeps his promises. I love all of you my babies my angels.

exactly a month has passed and although i miss you terribly i know you're there watching over us all, i hope you are very happy in a better place my precious angel and hopefully you'll be able to look over a new brother or sister very soon. love you so much maddox.xxx