Benjamin Paul Epp
- 38 years old
- Male
- Born Mar 12, 1969
- Died Jan 10, 2008
- North Vancouver, British Columbia, Canada
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To My Son You are gone 4 years Jan 10-2012
Whom I love with all my heart how I miss you I was up most of the night last night thinking about my last night with you four years ago.
I went over it in my mind so many times trying to make sence of why you had to die and leave me I shall never understand that as long as I live.
As the my thoughts went on and on I wondered what I should have or could have done different but all I could to was thank the universe that I was able to be there for you you did not die alone and for this I am greatful that I watched over you like I was too as your mother.
I always mark the calender with a bright yellow marker on the 10th of each month to remind me that you are my sunshine even if you are not here with me.
I lite your candle today as on this day I shall burn it all day.
My beautiful son I know you are with me always in my heart mind and soul but on days like this its hard for me to remember that you with me.
My saddness is deep and my sorrow great missing you today it seems like the longer you are gone the more I miss you and the deeper the sorrow my heart aches but the heart can be broken and still work that is why I am here .
I shall forever love you my angel please send me light today my path seems so dark and I feel so alone with out you.
Love you forever and beyond this life alaway Mom.
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Merry Christmas my Benji
Susan Szabo Dec 26, 2011
On the menu we had your grandma's french toast how you loved that Daniel too,I told the 3 boys that it was your great grandma made it the best. We had eggs benny I got up early to cook the ham the only thing missing was you I so miss you.<br /><br />
I called you brother you have missed so much Ashley now has 2 kids a boy and a girl they are so sweet Morgan is such a sweet boy reminds me of you so much talks a mile a minute just like you did.Kara cried when she first saw me but than she does not know me I am going to see them in spring I want to be there for her 1st birthday.I'll give her a big hug and kiss from you ok.<br /><br />
I love you my son I am going to go rest now everyone is gone so I'll have a sleep and hope to see you alive and well in my dream.Love you forever my beautiful child. Mom
My dear Benji
Susan Szabo Dec 12, 2011
No one understands how I feel my heart and soul ache but I must be here with out you I do not know why no mother ever should have to have a child and than lose them this is the greatest sorrow that one can have.
But sweetie I know that if you knew how sad I was at this time of the year you would say come on mom you know I am with you I told you I always would be.Yes Benn I know you are beside me always you are apart of my very being my beautiful first born son I love you ............Forever I shall love you your ............Mother.
Happy Thanksgiving Benji
Susan Szabo Oct 10, 2011
My Dear Son
Susan Szabo Apr 24, 2011