Chelsie AghaRaad Tribute

Just put out Christmas and sitting here thinking of you, Chelsie. What Juan says is so true. The last thing you said to me is "I love you". We went to our famious family day today attending Church. I almost made it thru without tears and then at the end when we lit the candles the same as every year I felt it. It was You. I felt the love we share pierce my heart. I knew at that moment that it was you. The tears were then uncontrolled. I can not explain the love that struck my soul. The love between a mother and her baby, which for a brief moment I knew you were with me that very moment. God I miss that touch of love from you. The wonderful grace thing is that you still, even for a brief moment, give it to me in a physical way using my soul. When Abby gets up she will be happy with all her gifts and I will be too, but very sad. She has no idea that when I watch her all I think about is you not being here. I yet to know how I will make it in my own life not ever seeing my beautiful baby again and still do not know how I made it this long. I do know that I must take care of our baby Abby and that is my promise to you no matter how hard it is for me to breathe. You can always count on me. Merry Christmas my sweetness you are with us every moment in thought and prayer. I will never let go. Love, Mom