Garry Lee Stephens
- 42 years old
- Born Apr 16, 1965
- Died Feb 10, 2008
- California United States
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Garry's ~ Last will and testament
This Written by Garry 9/1/1982
March 11, 2008 
I wanted to share a cute story that my brother Garry wrote. He had it framed and I found it at his home in Smartsville yesterday, while I was packing up the last of his things. 3/10/08 Yesterday was hard, the final trip to his property, and the 10th... one month he has been gone. It all still seems like a bad dream! I was glad I found this, it made the days end a bit better.
MY HAT
One early morning oh about five years ago, my father and I were sitting on the bank of Sacramento river, holding our fishing poles in our hand. I say holding our poles instead of fishing because, as usual we weren't catching a thing. We hadn't got a bite in the last six times out. I almost forgot what we were out there for. Getting up at 4:00 am and heading out to sit out on some cold, wet and soggy bank for 3 hours in total silence isn't my idea of exactly the most thrilling time of my life.
Well, anyway, we started B.S ing, since we both realized it wasn't very futile to go on any more and my dad apologized for the great fishing and said, Here son have my hat.
I was shocked, it was my fathers prize hat, he treasured it. I told him thanx and proceeded to put it on my head. It felt nice and comfortable. It wasn't the most beautiful hat, all white except for this patch that said, " Peterbuilt on it, but I loved it.
Every year I would go on vacation with my parents, While with them I would see some unique hat, something that no one else would get, and buy it. I treasure my hat collection, but of all the hats, I treasure that old " Peterbuilt" hat the most.
This written by Garry 9/1/1982
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My Poem
GarrysLittleSisTink Jun 17, 2009
So easly said
You dont know how it feels
Until your loved one is dead
No words can define
A heart so broken
No peace of mind
In condolence spoken
Some say give it time
Again your sun will shine
Although comforted in sorrow
The pain is here tomorrow
Say goodbye.. just say a prayer
and hope to heal from the pain
Gives no relief just despair
it just plays games with my brain
I think I am going insane
was it me? who to blame?
I think I would rather
just stay busy and just gather
Thoughts in my head
just tell myself he's not dead
Just to think of him riding
On his harley or hiding
With the wind on his face
When he would disapear without a trace
and show up much later
With that smile on his face
Yes I think I will just ponder
Where did he go today.. I wonder?
This way my sun will again shine
There is no need to give it time
How am I today? I am fine..
can't talk though, I am busy
We can chat another time
No need to call me tomorrow
I'll be fine without sorrow
I have a garden I need to tend
I have no need for a friend
I am fine here all alone
I have no need for the phone
Just keeping too busy to think
Then there's no need for a shrink
Today I think I will plant more flowers
oh ..how the minutes turn into hours
as for today the sun will shine
So don't worry I'll be fine....
My Memory
GarrysLittleSisTink Mar 25, 2009
Mom was here she visited me and worked her magic made me feel better and we had a visit from your best friend. It was so nice.. I wish we could get together more often it is nice to see others who share in the loss of you and share the love we have for you.. I know you would be happy about what I sent your best friend home with.. me and Mom were wanting to keep it but it just seemed like you were letting me know where you think it belonged.. your Harley vest is now where you would want it... I know it will be cherished!
At times on more than a few occasions you are on my mind and something weird happens.. I am busy doing housework or picking up papers and its plain as day, I see you walk in my house say hello Tinky! as if you were just stopping in for a visit.. I hear your deep laugh and see you bending down to pet my dog and you change the tone in your voice to match the excitement of my dog..acting like a dork..
Then you come give me a hug but not just a hug, its a bear hug and pick me up grunting as I yell STOP and beg for you to put me down.. you put me down and pinch my arms and tell me how you wish yours were as big as mine.. as I point out to you look... they aren't so big anymore... I realize it is just a replay of an old memory.. but it's all I have of you now... It's times like that help me get through this... days when I can pretend your not gone.. I miss you big brother.. I really do...
My Memory
GarrysLittleSisTink Feb 10, 2009
I have been lost in grief for far too long..
Inside my head I replay the call..
It's been a nightmare, It's when I lost it all...
It was my dad, he was on the line he said to me, Tina.. It's your brother..
in the background I heard the screams of my mother..
I dropped to the ground with the phone in my hand..
It must have been an hour before I could stand..
Mind set a blur, with my emotions all mixed..
My family chain was now broken and felt, it will never again be fixed..
Since the day my brother died, my mind has been scattered..
searching within, what's life all about? asking myself..what really mattered?
Sorting through the guilt and feeling the shame,
I never said I'm sorry, no.. that day never came..
Now, I will hold on to hope that somehow it's true
that with heaven comes forgiveness and hope that, somehow he knew...
Today It's a year since he left us on earth.
filled with so much sadness and regret ..what's it all worth?
It is now time to let it go..
It's time to say goodbye to all the shame..
It is time to begin my life here with a new year.. without pain..
I will save the I'm sorry's for him another day..
now I will send my love to him up to heaven today..
I know I will see him there, somehow.. someway..
Our family chain will link back together again in heaven someday..
Today we will all light a candle and just like your soul, it will shine!
In remembrance of you, sweet brother of mine...
Love you forever,
Tinky
Feb, 10 2009
GarrysLittleSisTink Feb 08, 2009
Garry..
A Year has past since you left, not one day goes by without you in my thoughts, although some days are harder than others..
I still feel the pain, it hasn't gone away..
I have come to the realization that the sadness I continue I have because of your death is with me to stay..
It's just being left here without my brother... and only having the memory of you, It just doesn't seem like its enough..
but I know holding on to them is all I have left of you...
I try to focus on happy times and think of the all the good memories, but as hard as I try.. Nothing changes the fact that your gone..
I sometimes catch myself thinking.. If I just try to imagine your just away on a long trip, and your having a good time, and your just to busy to check in back home..
Then reality hits, It's been a whole year and It has not all been a bad dream....
Your death has brought so much unbearable pain to our family and still today it continues to overwhelm us.
I know the same goes for a select few...
your closest family, friends, special relationships..all the lives that your love still touches today...
Your spirit is still felt here..so strong, and I believe that you are aware of our love and that you know what's in our hearts..
So I am asking you for a little help bro...
Ma and Pa need your help..
So It's time to pull out all the heavenly influences that you are able to..
please help them find some peace and more healing...
Help them with the pain they can't bare, whisper a favor in God's direction and see if He can manage some healing down here, I can't seem to get him to hear my request..
I am not asking for myself, I know you don't want them to hurt .. so do whatever you can to send some healing in Bandon's direction..
I will keep trying to help here at my end... but I really think this is a job, that can only be done from above...
I love and miss you Garry...
love Tinky