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Jessica Morris

  • Died Aug 29, 2008
  • Lincoln, Rhode Island, United States
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Lost her battle to cancer

Jessica Morris had just turned 18 when she sat with her mother in a doctor's office and heard the news. She had ovarian cancer, and the tumor was large and advanced. She would need an immediate hysterectomy.

Her mother started to cry. Jessica asked what was happening, what it all meant - what was a hysterectomy?

Her uterus would need to be removed, her mother, Kathie, said. Jessica looked back blankly. No babies, her mother said.

Jessica, a dance teacher who loved working with children, broke down.

As those around her wept, Jessie, her family's flamboyant princess, the center of attention, immediately brushed away her tears, and resolved to turn her pain into something positive.

"Mom, I might have cancer, but cancer's not going to get me," she told her mother. "Ovarian cancer picked the wrong diva."

She underwent the hysterectomy in October of 2005. Within a month of surgery, she was back at her alma mater, Lincoln High School, speaking to classes of girls about ovarian cancer. She did the same with the teens in her dance studio. She called the disease a silent killer, because it had ravaged her body long before she even knew she had it.

As she and her family tried to learn more about the cancer that had stricken her, however, they found few places to turn. Plenty of information was available about breast cancer, but they found few resources nationally, and virtually none locally, for dealing with ovarian cancer.

Her family searched for a local chapter of the National Ovarian Cancer Coalition, but none existed. So they founded their own, and began raising money for research, awareness and support.

After several successful dinners and golf tournaments in 2006 and 2007, Jessica and her family set their sights on something bigger: a walk to promote awareness, with Jessica leading hundreds of marchers.

This Sunday morning, her family's vision will come true, as an expected 500 men and women will march through Roger Williams Park on the state's first walk for ovarian cancer. More than 300 walkers have signed up already, and the event has raised $15,000 to fight ovarian cancer in Rhode Island.

But Jessica will not be there.

JESSICA MORRIS was not a typical ovarian cancer victim. It is rare to see ovarian cancer strike a woman under 35, and when it is diagnosed, the disease often claims it victim within months.

In women age 35-74, ovarian cancer is the fifth-leading cause of cancer-related deaths. One woman in 58 will contract the disease during her lifetime, and the American Cancer Society estimates that 15,520 women will die from ovarian cancer this year.

If the cancer is caught early, the survival rate is high. But with so little awareness and few easy tests, most women are deep into the disease before diagnosis.

Jessica's first signs came toward the end of high school, when she experienced sudden weight loss, and then weight gain, and painful menstrual periods.

After her cancer was discovered and her hysterectomy complete, Jessica began chemotherapy. Her long, thick, red hair, her calling card, fell out. She kept smiling, and dancing. The cancer seemed to disappear, and for a short time, everything returned to normal.

Then it came back, stronger. She never wavered, however. They only saw her smile break once, said her aunt, Colleen Ricci. Jessica was talking to her grandfather, who had also come down with cancer, and the two were talking about their diagnoses.

"Papa, I'm pissed. I'm pissed," Jessica told him. "He said, you know what, honey, you can say it. I'm pissed too," Colleen said.

The tumor grew, squeezing her intestines and her urethra. Jessica was fitted for a colostomy bag, and for tubes to take her urine from her kidneys. Instead of hiding away, she continued to teach dance whenever possible.

For a 2007 recital, she tied off the tubes coming out of her body, and danced in seven numbers, to the delight of the audience.

But in the past year, the situation worsened. She couldn't keep any food down, and vomited three to five times a day. She contracted the MRSA virus several times. Fluid had begun to pool in her legs, and walking became more difficult.

She refused to give up. A dance recital was scheduled for June at East Providence High School. That morning, Jessica took a blood infusion, slipped on her tap shoes, and tapped out of the hospital, to the nurses' delight and the horror of the janitor.

She tied off her tubes jutting from her body, put on her dance outfit, and performed one dance, to a massive ovation.

She planned to go out with the other dancers afterwards, to feel normal for at least one night. Then her mother came backstage. Her blood work had come back from the hospital, and it wasn't good: she needed to return right away. Jessica was silent for a moment, then nodded, and packed her bags for Women & Infants.

THE DAY Jessica Morris died, preparations for the walk at Roger Williams were almost complete.

It was two weeks ago today, and friends and family were busy stuffing envelopes and mailing letters. Jessica was in good spirits, and hoping to lead the walk, even though she might have to ride in a wheelchair.

This summer, her doctors had told her that her cancer was terminal, and asked if she wanted to end chemo. She refused, saying, "I'm not ready for it to be over yet. I'm not going anywhere yet."

Jessica had recently contracted pneumonia, but she seemed to be coming out of it, and doctors had told her that she could probably leave the hospital that day.

Then it happened. Jessica suffered a seizure. She was alive and semi-conscious, but it was clear she wasn't coming back.

"She waited for me to get into bed with her," Kathie said. "I held her for 15 minutes, and we talked to her, and then she let go."

Surrounded by family and friends, Jessica died Aug. 29 at 9:50 p.m.

Her death was in some ways expected, but it has left her family in shock nonetheless. Thumbing through pictures of his daughter, John Morris said it still seems like she will walk through the door.

"I don't know how you recover from losing a child. I really don't. There's no guide book. There's no manual," John said.

Perhaps, he hopes, if one woman hears Jessica's story, and because of it catches her cancer early, Jessica will live on.

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My memory

Lori Bilodeau Sep 26, 2009

I remember he first time I met Jessie my Morgan bonded with her instantly. It must of been the red hair. Morgan loved and still does to this day Miss Jessie
the other day she was sitting the deck doing her home work which is always a fight to get done. She was talking out loud I said who are you talking to she said Miss Jessie. I said bet she is telling you to do your home work.
Jessie wanted to take Morgan to school wirth her. I said she is a handful but she did not care. She is missed every day Morgan now wants to take all the dance classes she can to be like Miss Jessie(Good luck Kathie). She also want to find a cure. Jessie inspired so many and touched so many she will be forever in our hearts We know she is dancing on the stars

A MOTHER OF A LOST CHILD

ANGEL AVILA Jul 01, 2009

HI SORRY ABOUT YOUR LOSS.I LOST MY DAUGHTER ON MOTHERS DAY OF THIS YEAR.A GUN WENT OFF AND SHOT HER IN THE SHOULDER AND OUT HER STOMACK.I SEEN WHERE SOMEONE COMMENT HOW DO WE DEAL WITH A LOSS OF A CHILD.I SURE WOULD LIKE TO KNOW.I CRY DAY IN AND DAY OUT THEY SAY REMEMBER THE HAPPY TIMES WELL THE MAKE ME CRY MORE,ASHLEY WAS A GOOD GIRL IT WASNT HER TIME TO GO SHE WAS MY HERO.I HOPE THINGS GET EASY FOR YOU TOO.THANKS FOR TAKIN THE TIME.TO ONE MOTHER TO ANOTHER LOVE ANGEL AVILA

My Memory

Colleen Jun 07, 2009

I have too many to write about...I just thank God that Jessie was born to "us". She is and will forever be an incredible inspiration to all of us. I miss her every hour of everyday. She and I were like best friends more than an aunt and niece. She confided in me and I in her...I still can't believe she's gone. I see so much of her in Kayla, Kathie and John. She was indescribable to those who didn't know her. There are no words that fully capture her spirit, her passion, her love, her beauty, her laughter, her honesty, her incredible strength...no words. That's why losing her is so devastating...I know I will never know a soul ike hers again. From the very first day I laid my eyes on her I fell completely in love...she was our first and she was as close to perfect as anyone could be-our Princess, our hero and my beautiful "lil' sis".

What a lady!

LadyTweety72 Sep 23, 2008

I know you are up there with our king, dancing and jammin'. You are still very much alive in the hearts of those who loves you most, and although I never got the honor of meeting you, your courage and will to live is an inspiration to me and I am quite sure so many others. Rest in Peace Jessica! My condolences to her family.

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