HAPPY BIRTHDAY
Today would've been JR's 28th birthday. I miss him so much, I'm torn with what to do with my day. I have laundry to take care of, and a room to clean but I'm completely numb. I so wish he was here so I could celebrate with him instead of for him. I guess it's more of honoring who he was. Baby I have no idea how I make it through without you. Your smile keeps me going. But sometimes I have to take your pictures down because I get too depressed in the fact that it kills me to look at you sometimes. Not that I don't love you anymore but that the pain is so unbearable that it only hurts worse. I love you so much and keep myself as positive as I can but it gets so hard!
Have a good day with your family in the after life, I'm glad after all these years that they've been watching you grow up that they now get those times with you and that you are not alone. That puts my feelings for you at peace... the feelings for myself not so much! But I miss you and think about you everyday!
Happy Birthday baby! I love you!!!
KK
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