Lillian Mashao Tribute

Mma, it has been a year since you left this world. on July 1, 2008. I dreaded this day more than any day, but I guess because you are at peace, I remembered how this day went last year without deep sadness. I thought I would breakdown, but God held me and made me remember you the way you were. I could say I heard your voice during the day, or perhaps it was my imagination. What I felt today was peace in my heart, every time I remembered what happened on this day last year. The truth is Mma, you are healed, you ran the race of life with grace and you left men and women behind. You did the best for us. I will remember that for the rest of my life. Some days I feel I want you back here with us. Some days it feels as if you have gone some place far away and one day you will be back. Some days it feels ok to accept that you have gone to be with your Maker. It does not make sense, but God will make it better. I miss you Mma, but please may your soul rest in peace. You are healed and that is how it should be. I will always love you Mma. Oh, How I long to hear your voice. Robala ka kgotso, Mme wa ka.

It is Mothers Day today and you are not here to say to exchange the Happy Mothers Day greeting. Oh Mma, how sad it is these days to realise each moment that you are not coming back. You have been on my mind so much these days. Now I know how much others were hurt by Moms day after their moms passed. I remember this time this last year, you were sick and suffering, but at least you were here. I hate to feel selfish by wanting you alive, but at the same time remember how painful it was to me to see you the vibrant meticulous person, feeling helpless and bedridden, The pain you suffered Mma was unbearable, I could see it. The pictures on this memorial, always make me cry because this was you at your best. How much I wish I could hear you talk again. It is painful Mma, but I remember you dearly, your love, your advise your warmth/ I hopethis pain will go away one day, but I will never forget you for who you are. This Mothers Day is not the same without you. I miss you Mma, life is so different without you and daddy. I am in pain tonite. I love you always.