Lizabeth JoRae Tribute

First off let me start by stating that I am truly and deeply sorry for your loss. Liz and I were kindred classmates in our sometimes misguidedly troubled high school years. Back when she was 14-15ish and I was 15-16ish. With that being said I should probably also apologize for my part in her dark days.

I guess we were kind of an item for awhile although in truth I feel it was mostly out of pity and her just trying to fix me and make me better. Any ways as much as I knew she was way too good for me I think she saw that at the time I was a lost cause on a one way road to self destruction and I was bringing her down with me.

We used to spend a lot of time together avoiding school and just talking and debating different ideas and beliefs as we walked from one place to another. Liz was truly one of the most amazing and wonderful people I ever had the blessing to meet. The time we spent together although brief, perhaps a year of being close and talking regularly left a permanent impression upon me.

In truth I feel that in this life we all have at least one relationship that we mess up that haunts us for the rest of our lives and makes us wonder what ifs. For me that is Liz. I know you are probably thinking - if this is true then why now am writing this.

In truth it is because of how much I cared for and respected Liz. I did look her up and contact her once when I was 18 because I wanted to apologize for all that I had put her through. It was then that I saw how much she had straightened herself out and didn't need some one like me messing up her life because I was still lost and unsettled.

Anyways to add to the why now it is because I finally straightened out my life and became a person I can actually look at in the mirror and not cringe at. I finally became the person she thought I was all those years ago and I wanted to see what she was up to and perhaps get together and talk as friends.

Ok time to wrap this up because it is getting difficult to type through the tears that are streaming down my face. Well, that’s my history with your daughter. With that said let me again offer my deepest condolences.

As much as it pains me to know that we have lost an angel down here I am comforted by knowing that just like she did all those years ago with me here she went back home to where she belongs and once again she has inspired me to be a better person in hopes of seeing her again someday so I can apologize and thank her.

If there is anything you would like to ask or talk to me about my email is j_heili@yahoo.com

Spend all your time waiting for that second chance
For the break that will make it ok
There's always some reason to feel not good enough?
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction, oh beautiful release
Memories seep from my veins
They may be empty and weightless, and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

In the arms of an Angel, fly away from here
From this dark, cold hotel room, and the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of an Angel; may you find some comfort here

So tired of the straight line, and everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back
The storm keeps on twisting, you keep on building the lies
That you make up for all that you lack
It don't make no difference, escaping one last time
It's easier to believe
In this sweet madness, oh this glorious sadness
That brings me to my knees

In the arms of an Angel, far away from here
From this dark, cold hotel room, and the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie
In the arms of an Angel; may you find some comfort here

Thank you Marliee. She is a wonderful gift that my heart will never forget. I ache for her every day, but knowing she is with the Lord brings me comfort. I am sorry for your loss as well. I will check out your pages.

What a gift -to have such a wonderful beacon of light even if only for a short time in flesh.
How much more is it a blessing is to have her in your hearts and memories for all time.
she is your angel now.Let her wings embrace you.

I am originally from milwaukee- and attended college in madison. U.W. Kevin may remember me in passing.your welcome to visit my page anytime. (still under constructtion). Also check- Baily// Alexanders// and Stirgus.There is a history between our familys. I am very sorry for your loss. Please accept my warmist hopes that your family has that beautiful angel with you always.