I will continue this story next time, as it cannot be written without emotional events,boring it is not..not just another pet story either, see, each time I must write about him "RUSTIE" I re-live each emotion..and it hurts...never having a child,but having Tabby.."RUSTIE" 13yrs was, a love, I couldn't have given more to any "spiritually "human",living thing. "Human" has many descriptions,any intellegent person would agree,to disagree when a statement is made...he's not human,we are human...that depends on how one sees "human" from "monster!
When you give your all,and nothing is ever an annoyance.When it warms your heart each time you give..making a thing a surprise,...Not passive to the needs of,! Saving his/her life because you perservered, and prayed while he had to stay away because he needed care...This is about a most beautiful Tabby Cat,[ Also "DUKE" our first dog..shepherd in '75...before Rustie..that story re: Bidawee Animal Cemetary in Wantaugh,LI ny..they did a most terrible thing....You must know about Rustie,and "Bideawee" & DUKE, beause, for all you "so-called" pet owners,who let your cat outside,to become ferrel, is something I'll never get my mind around..then again the ones who do this are easy to anylize..Maybe this has happened to you...pet cemetary...a real wake for "DUKE",in '75 after having him from '70...this story MUST be told...I will need your opinions,please as there was never "Closure" to this..legal that is! Be back torowwow..May 4th/09
thank you all..I need some friends...

CONTINUED FROM "NATASHA" FROM: CATHERINE J? NATASHA LEFT US 2 days after "MY" birthdate..March 14th!

I know there are many who say "they were happy" when describing many marraiges..BUT.."this" marraige "WAS" indeed a deep,passionate one! There were rules they made..never staying away from their boys at the same time! They considered their boys! They made a pact and they stayed true to it! Natasha once said..when seeing Liam Neeson.."I want to marry Liam Neeson!" as she was always crazy for him..and so the story goes..a shocker indeed! I saw Ralph Finnes at the memorial,I knew they were friends,and now they'll no longer have Natasha..the strong willed, "Fierce" is what they thought of her...I could imagine a woman such as that, demonstrative,saying what she felt...a warm,full of life lady...I will always remember "Mary, Queen of Scots" w/ her mom Vanessa Redgrave..I call her "my true Mary of Scotland". I fell in love w/ the doomed queen, the magnificent sountract by John Barry..my point is simply this...
Now, when I see it again, I'll imagine Vanessa , close to having Natasha! "Schinler's List" was just aired on HBO, and now when I look at Mr. Neeson, I imagine the pain and deep unhappiness of this loss, together w/ the "rock" that strong presence,the woman who made everything right...She was beautiful,and respected by her peers as were all the Richardsons! Like I said..many think other marraiges are happy, when they are not..but there are thousands who are deeply committed and they were! There was no "drama" here! Healthy and everlasting,their love will always be bonded...my heart pains me to think of Mr.Neeson, alone now, having gone into the room they shared,the lingering scent of her perfume, and alone before he slept,would be without her next to him..it is too sad, a waste! Now he must raise those boys,alone together w/ the family as they were close...as we know...They say teen years when you loose a parent is the worst time..any age is, but those are the formitable yrs,they only had a few yrs to know her,those inportant yrs,nurturing yrs...Oh God, why didn't she go w/ the first ambulance???She felt fine,but later? I knew in my heart she was going to God! I often wonder if they spoke about death { I know} all creative people,deep thinkers often do,what and how they should "go on w/ their lives when one of us dies..perhaps Liam Neeson knows she is happy, and close to them all of the time..perhaps they did talk about life,after death! Everything happens for a reason..but we must wait sooo long to finally know that answer,& at the time, there "is" no reasoning,only grief and pain!
Note: When Carole Lombard died in a plane crash soon after married to Clark Gable, he left all of her things in her room just the way they were! When he re-married, he had such a spiritually understanding new wife, the room was still in-tact! Lombard was also demonstrative..known for her "cursing" expressive nature,that was what he loved..the whole woman! Many "pious" idiots hate curse words,but they'll behave,like a curse word!
When they censor "emotional"outbursts in a movie,it kills the necessary momentous meaning.."heck?" instead of Hell, when God even said that! jesus too,the bible etc..Godfather..Sonny saying "sonofagun" instead of "Bitch?"takes the entire emotional anger out! So, these 2 women were "fiesty" and loved for it! I know I go off the beam, but a writer unable to write short stories..well I'll try to stop,even though I took the long road around that part!!!!
I want to say, how sad,depressed I have been lately, seeing these people die! I often wonder why the wicked,evildoers,aren't suffering,and why "they" are not facing death! nobody would mourn them anyway,instead we loose such wonderfully accomplished,selfless,cultured,humble, able to give,able to love,why do they leave us while.....must be a reason,it better be a good one,dear God..Bless Mr.Neesom & their boys, and help this family help,comfort one another, give Liam Neeson the strength to endure his loss, each day. I adore him,always have, and saw them smiling together in every photo, the smile beneath the smile..it was a genuine love, a bond,they were "in love"& who knows the messages she has given,the signs? She was a strong lady,determined,perhaps she has appeared to him, we don't know, but it "has" happened thousands of times when unexpected death and such a loving pair separate suddenly...God Bless the Richardson family, Joley, saw her just last night in "Affair of the Necklace"