Philip Anthony Darren Clarke Tribute

I will alwayz love u and miss u cuzzy every day i cry for youu

Happy birthday Philip

this is late i was tryna write this tribute from january 1st but for some reason everytime i try to write get just got delete....sad....all that writing.....But anyways Happy New Years .... i cant believe it its 2011 the year of ending possiblities and happiness we deemed it years before...... Because of course I will be 21 this year, we were suppose to travel different place soar for better education this was also the year we suppose to get engaged ......I can just reminisce on all the things we talked about picture it all coming to life...... For some reason there are three song that every time i hear them i think of you ...Unbreak my Heart and that probably also because of the video....Like You'll Never See Me Again probably because i live that song i know what it is Boy i would hold u and dont want to let go and liss you like it was the last time because the reality of it was it would have been so i would have savored every moment relished in every embrace cherish even the most simplest of things....and the last song is by pink and yes it does sound like begging but it goes i forgot to say out loud how beautiful you really are to i cant be without you your my perfect little punching bag i need you im sorry Please Please Don't Leave Me.... But now it time to face the fact that all of our dreams of being together having an adventurous, exciting, new chapter can no longer be written and april of this year would mark that you have been gone 2 years i still question how i am able to face each day maybe it cuz i still pray for you even though you not here or because i still feel your presence around me or it that one time you visited me in my dreams that was one dreams i didnt want to wake up from cause everything felt so real us walking around the conversation was still full of jokes you were smiling from ear to ear and hugging each other felt both remarkable and unbelievable in the dream it was so real and when i woke up i questioned everything ......Its getting easier i won't lie but this is still rough a piece of me is still torn because you were my best friend i wouldnt have traded you for anyone else yes sometimes you were annoying other you made me upset and yet you were so in sync with me you could tell how i was feeling before i even said anything you knew the right things to say you encouraged me ....... I MISS YOU AND LOVE YOU its that simple to say and it will always be what i say and i hope the 6 years i knew you was as good 4 u as it was for me because it was filled with such good memories......

Normally with pain after awhile it goes away but this is something that Istill am tryin to come to grips with. I missed your birthday and I'm sorry but the pain was too much to bear. Loosing a little cousin is hard when you know he was sly but never disrespectful. God has His reason why he took you and I know it was for the best and that you had already lived out your earthly purpose. To God be the glory for giving me a chance to be apart of your life. Uncle Mickey had a beach picnic and my world was so so empty without you and Kendra. Family get togethers I treasure now but I miss the memories of us.

Gerren got married July 17th and you would have been proud of him. His wife is also expecting a baby in Feb next year. He is really growing up and I wish you were here to share that with him.

Sleep on my baby cousin, just know that as time passes the pain does not cease. I love you and know that you are watching over all of us that you love dearly. From my heart to yours baby.

I LOVE YOU CUZZY WUZZY!!!
REST IN PEACE!!!

On this day God gave you life and such as He gave that He took away. One year is here, April 25th, 2009 was the day your soul was taken from this Earth, the day my heart began to ache, the day my life was in disarray. I have come to the realization that you are gone Darren and there is nothing that I can do about that, no amount of words or tears will ever bring you back. The only thing that I have and will continue to hold on to is the memories that you have left me with that continuously flood my mind. Our childhood and adolescent years I hold closely to my heart. I love you now and always, nothing or no one will ever change that. Darren you might not be here with us physically but I know your spirit surrounds us daily. When I think about you I think of your smile, your sense of humour, your interesting analogies when it comes to you telling us why were wrong and you were always right, these are some things that keep me going every day. Sometimes I think about what it would be like to see your face again and to hear you say “Ranny” to see you smile and hear your laughter. One day I know I will get the chance to do just that, I just wished that one day was today.
People say as time passes your heart will heal, that’s a lie because it never does. No amount of days weeks months or years can erase the pain that you feel, that pain stays with you, it’s like a needle pricking at your side. I cherish the times we had good and bad, through fights and arguments, through sadness and joy, pain and sorrow, if I could go back to spend each one with you all over again and again I would do it without complaint. Happy Birthday my love, my Darren, I do not fear that you will not enjoy your day because I know that you are rejoicing amongst the Angels where God up above have found favour with you and given you rest. I love you, I love you, Darren RANNY LOVES YOU....SLEEP ON AND TAKE YOUR REST. God chose you out of all of us because He needed you.....R.I.P. I miss you and I love you

all i can say right now is that..... i truly miss you ..... everything about you.....and i can't believe that a year is almost here.....i love you baby