STEPHANY CAMPANA Tribute

Manita, it's the xmas season and you have no idea how HARD this is for me. I think about you every second of the day. I can't even glance at one of your pictures without a tear coming out. I miss you so much manita, you can imagine how hard these holidays are for me. Even now as I type i'm f-ing crying. This is all much harder to see mom like in another world, she's starting to get forgetful, distraught, like gone. I'm trying to stay strong for her manita but everything thats been happening in our "FAM-ILY" since you left, has taken a major toll on that strong, sturdy, hardcore woman that gave birth to us. Steph, during these difficult times I don't want you to be sad for anything thats happening down here. Everybody has parted their seperate ways but PLEASE don't think this was because of your leaving...u know it was bound to happen sooner or later, but the time just came. Mom is fine cuz she has a peace of mind now. She has me and people that love her dearly, everything and everybody else that wants to harm her and us with their IGNORANCE are all alone and miserable in their lives right now as we speak. Manita, we went to the cemetery the other day and put up a lil christmas tree for you, so you can celebrate christmas with us. Hope you like it. Right now I must go back to work, I'm a wreck right now, my eyeliner (used to be urs) has rubbed off. Manita, Christmas Dinner is at my house this year, including folks flying in from down south, like Dre* and Marisol, G, the girls and el loco are coming over too, Rob is passing by tambien, Sammy and Stephanie are spending it with us again in your honor.....and manita, you're going to be there too, sitting right between Black and me, remember you used to call Anthony "Black"? It slips sometimes and he looks at me hard and sayd "uh-uh, that was steph's". OK! My bad! lol Steph, Black has been very supportive to mom, me and da fam. He doesn't talk about it at all, cuz u know he's a hard one to show his emotions, but at times when he sees me crying, he tears too. He even wears your scarf cuz u used to tie it in a special way he can look fly LOL he tells me that all the time.
This christmas will be the saddest in my life...not only cuz you're gone, but because our family has deteriorated. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART, MIND, BODY AND SOUL. You are highly missed by EVERY breathing being I know....yup...even Biru from da block. You are my angel and I know you're always looking down at me and smiling at me. I've never dreamt with you ever since....but hopefully you'd know why and when the time comes, I hope you wake me up to talk just like we used to do. Love you Big Bertha, forever......for life!
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year Luva TE AMO!