Susan Simpkin Tribute

Three years, I haven't seen your beautiful face for three years, i wish you didn't have to go Nan, i always think about you, and cry like hell, the family is so distant since you passed away, you meant so much to us Nan, i wrote loads of things about you, and I've told all my friends about you, i need you Nan, i don't think I'm ever going to be the same, i want just one more proper hug, and to tell you all my worries& troubles, my life is really difficult, i guess your the missing piece, but i'll see you soon, wait for me up in heaven..Kelly's had a baby, he's called Ryan James, you would of loved him Nan, and you would have put R Kelly straight, I wonder if your looking down on me, I know I'm crying at the moment but that's because it feels like its been forever since i saw you, i know i can't say this to your face but, i love you, i took you for granted once or twice but that was because i didn't think you would ever leave me, well i know you was going to sometime but we was both so young when you left, i mean you didn't get to see how i turned out, i always prayed you would be here for my 13 birthday because you would of made it one to remember, but you wasn't even hear for my 10, the last Christmas we spent together i was 8, The whole family was together, It was the best Christmas ever, Each year on my Christmas list i put the same thing on every single year since you died, I put: For my Nan to be here, I know deep inside that, that wont happen, But who said i can't just hope? You gave me the strength to hope and wish Nan, I've rebelled so much from Mum and Dad, and i just feel so alone, I'll come and write to you again soon, Love you forever and a day, and i miss you so much, never forget me please, and i'll never forget you, I'll see you soon beautiful, Promise, All my love, NicNak,<3<3<3<3<3<3 p.s, I'll look for you in rainbows<3