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I will not let you go, Susan. I will not allow your love for life and even more, your love for Judaism be swallowed by the earth’s crust of a burning airplane.

For me, I entered Temple Beth Am openly saying to you that I did not enjoy your singing, your high pitched voice or even the attempts to add bongo drums to the Friday night services. Having been raised in a Jewish Conservative/Orthodox lifestyle, I wanted the traditional baritone voice emanating from the bimah. I had come to Temple Beth Am for the sake of my son’s Bar Mitzvah and eventually met you who changed my life even though I resisted over and over to hear your voice call out to me.

A few years ago I joined your Service Leadership Class with the belief that my previous experiences of being a temporary chazzan in my youthful days would add to the enjoyment of attending every Friday night service. Our class of extremely diverse people melded into a ‘family’ of lay people who rose to the occasion of actually leading a Friday night service and experiencing the thrill of a grateful number of congregants who provided all of us with praise and encouragement for what we accomplished. We became disciples of you, your desire for continual progress with our singing, and your vast interpretation of the dynamics of what was really happening during the Seder. Even though I sang with an Ashkenazi dialect, it was you who allowed me to be me and still feel connected to the thrill of celebrating this Seder through your teaching. I gained tremendous respect for your abounding energy to help us through the tough spots, your compassionate challenge toward excellence in how we were saying the prayers, and your wisdom to connect all of our individual past experiences to the interpretation of the Friday night service; we felt as though we had been through a two year graduate training program in the several weeks that we practiced with you! We no longer just sang the words; we enjoyed the deep feeling of each sound that helped us connect to being Jewish! Singing became like praying twice – once for the words and their meaning and the second time for the thrill of feeling each sound and how it breathed life into the celebration of being Jewish!

I was amazed at your courage to accept my differences while still keeping true to your beliefs of an egalitarian lifestyle for women in the Jewish religion. I had a lot of personal challenges within the Reform movement of Temple Beth Am and you were the one person who encouraged me to take more risks toward enjoying Judaism while still clutching onto many traditions that were part of my remembrances as a child. You helped us start a Bikkur Cholim, helping the sick, group that visited people who were in need of feeling accepted and actually provided us with a contemporary course in pastoral counseling; an hour with you was exhausting but breath-taking in its revelation of what we could do as lay people for the Temple. We were creating a booklet of faith and hope that would be a part of our Temple’s outreach program that would include your recorded songs. We still have some unfinished pages to complete…with your help!

I will not let go of what you’ve helped create within me. I believe that I am a better person for having allowed you to touch my life and I accepted your hugs as a continual blessing toward being Jewish at Temple Beth Am.

Mac I. Barnett – Member of Temple Beth Am

Susan...my memory of you goes back to the beginning of DLTI (the first!) and the many years after...always SO happy to see you, catch up, share, support one another in our struggles and joys and celebrations......and then you became my smicha sister-3 years ago we shared that very deep and very powerful ordination ceremony where you became Cantor and I Rabbi.....and seeing you every year since. Always made me happy in my heart to share with you. I have been heartbroken at your sudden loss in this world, but I am comforted by understanding that some of us have had the privilege to share a connection of the neshamah that goes beyond friendship or just colleagues...it is a sacred sharing, and i thank you for showing this to me. I send love and care to your family and your congregation and all those whose hearts are torn.

Rabbi Chaya Gusfield (Oakland, CA)

Our whole family is deeply saddened at this time. Susan performed the baby naming ceremony for our granddaughter Lyla about a year and half ago. She was so lovely and made this special occassion for our family one we will never forget. We did not know her before the ceremony, but she made us all feel warm and special-especially the baby. Our sincere sympathy to her family , but the memories of a beautiful woman will always be there for you
Judy and Barry Baron (Williamsville, NY)

our thoughts and prayers are with Susan's family at this most difficult time --Susan teacher was a wonderful --always smiling and excited about what she was sharing ...She will be missed in the community Shalom
Ina and Herb Scheer
Ina & Herb Scheer (Amherst, NY)

Please accept my heartfelt condolences. I am shocked and saddened. I met Susan only hours after leaving my mother's bedside as she closed her eyes for the last time nearly two years ago. Susan came to my mother's home to meet with me and my brother to gather thoughts and memories for the eulogy she was to read at my mother's funeral service. As soon as Susan entered the room, I felt the warmth of her presence and the glow of her smile. She was enormously comforting in a time of great personal loss. Within minutes, she drew out memories and stories of my mother.. She stood by my side at the funeral and comforted me as I cried on her shoulder...I will never forget her kindness and her comforting words... and her beautiful voice. May she rest in peace...and may her family, friends and loved ones be blessed in this moment of great tragedy and sadness.
STEVEN RUBIN, PARIS, FRANCE