William Michael Koenig Tribute

Hi honey, Just sitting here listening to music and thinking of you. Miss dancing with you in the middle of the house. Had a pretty good night at work. Was pretty busy tonight and I did fairly well. Not like we would have in Philly but it works for me. Tomorrow we are going to head down to Philly for a little while. That drive always reminds me of you. How we used to have to stop every half hour or so. All the sites and places you wanted to visit and we had planned to see. It can be really hard sometimes. I will stop by and say hi to everyone as much as I can while I'm down there. I know you wouldn't want us to go down there and not stop by to see anyone. I love you so much. I sometimes think the pain of you not being here gets worse with each passing day instead of improving. I see you in my dreams and love to be there with you. Everything seems so real. Unfortunately I have to wake up from those dreams and come back to reality. Honey, I hate reality! I want to be with you! I miss you more than anything. I look forward to the day when we are reunited. Although I know that will most likely not be anytime soon as I have to many things here on this crappy planet that I must do. I look forward to sleeping just so I can be joined with you. Wish I could just sleep all the time but that isn't an option either. I know you are with me during those times when I am awake and I'm sure there are probably many people around here who think I am completely loony because I talk to what appears to be myself sometimes. I was thinking today how I can not really be myself out here like I could in Philly. I know you know what I mean. I don't want to have to continue hiding who I truly am. I know you wouldn't want that for me either. I know you want me smiling so I am working on what I have to in order to ensure that for you. Everything we had talked about is still in effect and I plan on doing all of it. I love you baby. Miss you! Hugzzzzzzzzzz and Kisszzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz Goodnight.

Hello baby, Just another lonely night here at home. It's raining again as usual. Was just sitting here thinking of you and thought I would write my normal nightly letter to ya. We have been really missing Philly lately and the kids and I are thinking about saving up to go back eventually. We came up here as a family looking to start fresh. I know if the shoe were on the other foot and you lost me that you would most likely go back to Philly as well. I'm not sure if we definitely are right now but we have talked about it. It's so lonely up here without you. You were always there to keep us going. Now with you not here it seems like we are all just giving up. I don't want that to happen and I know you don't want that either. I know you just want us all happy and I also know that you would want me smiling. You always hated when I wasn't smiling. I remember you poking me unexpectedly when we would be in the car just to get me to smile. Sometimes I wasn't even frowning just kinda zoned out and you would poke me to get me smiling. You would give me that silly wave of yours and I would always bust out laughing. I think of you all the time baby. I miss you so much. The kids miss you. Jareth sounds more and more like you every day! He comes up with some of the most random things and they immediately remind me of something you would say. We have all decided that without you here this place is just weird and kinda creepy. Without you here things aren't quite right. I know you will be with us where ever we are. I love you so much honey. I wish you could just yell out what we should do. Maybe that would make everything easier. I always trusted in every decision you made and knew that together we could make it work. Now it's just me and making this place work is much harder alone. I love you honey. Miss you sooo much. Miss you more and more each day. Sometimes I wish I could just be with you but I know that isn't possible right now. I also know that one day we will be reunited and be able to be happy like we were. You were just taken away so early. It just wasn't right. You had so much more love to give. We had so much more love to give to you! You finally found what you had been looking for only to have you taken in the midst of it. It's just not fair. I know you are around watching over us and helping us with our decisions. I love you honey. I need to get some sleep so I will write to you again tomorrow. Luvzzz and Hugzzzzz Your girl forever!