William Michael Koenig Tribute

I know you already know because I talked to you about it earlier. Today was a real rough night for me. I just don't know what to do. There is so much I want to do and the only thing holding me from it is money. You know, The usual. I miss you so much and the more people talk about you to me the more lost and alone I feel. I just wish you were with me. Everything is so different without you around. Nothing seems fun anymore. I just want to be happy again, like I was when you were here. I know you hate to see me upset. I want to smile for you again. I just can't seem to do it out here. Everything is just so wrong right now. All the "What Ifs" that go through my head don't seem to want to subside. All the what ifs that might have kept you here with me. I wake up in the middle of the night sometimes, crying because I am reliving that awful night you were taken away from me. I wonder if you are still with me. I wonder where my life is going. What the point to being here is without you. I miss you so much baby. I write you whenever I can and it's so hard baby. It's so hard to write these letters to you because I always cry. I just want you back. This is so unfair. I finally found real love. I finally found someone who loved me for who I was and could see potential in me. You were so uplifting to me. Always making me feel like I was important. I need you honey. I love you and miss you so much. I talk to you all the time. I dream of you and those dreams just seem to real that I don't want to wake because I am with you. If I could sleep all the time I would just to be by your side again. To hear your laugh again. To see that wonderful smile just one more time. I love you honey, my guy. I'm your girl and I belong with you. I just don't know what to do anymore. I feel like I'm losing my mind. I love you. I need to get some rest. I'll see you in my dreams baby. I love you always.