Diane Chak Chee Kuen Tribute

I am still so angry about what had happened.
I'm angry about who might have caused your death. Sometimes I blame you. Such a graceful and beautiful person who left us without anymore physical contact. Just lots of questions wondering who took you away, "Who"? "Why"?, "Who"?

As teenagers, we played and laughed and talked all day, everyday. That was in the 80's when we all wanted to be Madonna and Cyndi Lauper. We wanted to disco every weekend even we're still a little under age. You always ordered Gin n' tonic or Vodka Lime. You always know how to dress, and you always look good. You're always so generous too. I still have the party pictures of us wearing what we've borrowed from you and your sisters, Judy and Keral. So sweet like you.

At that age, we talked mostly about boys and love(we thought we know it all). I wished we're still silly like that. That was so simple.

For the past twenty years, our friendship had not changed. Our lives seemed more complex. There are times we still can't break through the boy/girl relationship dilema, the stress of our dying parent, issues of money and our career. But what make us any different than other people? We just need to live longer to face them.

Your relief is my grief, Diane. I have no choice but to grieve.

Really miss you!