i never really knew amanda for a long time but in the time that i did get to know her she became a good friend of mine. the first time i ever met her was my first day to paso robles high in history class with mr. skinner. i was the only sophmore in an, what was supposed to be an all junior class. she came threw the door and she had seen thaat everyone was talking to friends and that i was in the fromnt of the room by myself in the corner desk, came over, grabbed my books off my desk and set them next to her desk in the back. as i looked back and she sat down she said well are you coming? i got up and moved back to the seat next to her and she introduced herself and thats when we became friends. when i heard the news about amanda all i could do was cry. i honestly could not belive that she was gone. and now that i look back on time i ralize what an impact she really did have on my life. she was such an amazing woman and its devistating to know she isnt able to come back. my heart and prayers go out to her family and i really do hope that you all are doing the best you can be. you all raised an amazing, caring BEAUTIFUL young lady and im so sorry that the horrid people of PRHS and everyone else that bullied her took her away from you. Much love, Danielle

I can't believe it has been over two years since I've seen your smiling face or heard your amazing laughter.... i miss you so much Amanda<333 I just keep thinking about the last time I saw you, when you came up to me and gave me a big hug and said "I love you! I wish you'd feel better.... Call me if you need me?" and ran off to go meet up with your group. Ever since the first day we met you went out of your way to make sure I wasn't crying and I smiled at least once during the day.... I think about you every day and regret the fact I wasn't there for you how you were for me.... I talk to the sky a lot these days, specially when times are really hard. Sometimes, as stupid as it sounds... I tell you a joke or make my OWN life a joke, just in the hope you're up there laughing. ....Love You Always<33 Anita

I remember 2 years ago today I was a wreak and it's still the same way today. I've been ignoring what event is today, I'd rather celebrate the day you were born than the day you left this world...it's crazy how all you need is one significant event and then it all comes rushing back like it's some kind of tsunami... I miss you so much Amanda. .You will always be in my memory. I still have the sticker and saved one of the papers to write on.. and they're gunna stay with me forever, <3 Shelby Day

I remember 2 years ago today I was a wreak and it's still the same way today. I've been ignoring what event is today, I'd rather celebrate the day you were born than the day you left this world...it's crazy how all you need is one significant event and then it all comes rushing back like it's some kind of tsunami... I miss you so much Amanda. .You will always be in my memory. I still have the sticker and saved one of the papers to write on.. and they're gunna stay with me forever, <3 Shelby Day

Amanda its been two years sense you left this earth you made a great impact in many peoples life including my own i dont no if you hear me but i talk to you alot i miss are talks sitting in the back of class and emailing each other about whats going on with us both i miss the way we made each other smile my heart goes out to you where ever you may be and i cant wait to see you again and get one of those amazing hugs see you again some day my friend i will always miss and love you ....love Lyndsay Sylvestre

Amanda its been two years sense you left this earth you made a great impact in many peoples life including my own i dont no if you hear me but i talk to you alot i miss are talks sitting in the back of class and emailing each other about whats going on with us both i miss the way we made each other smile my heart goes out to you where ever you may be and i cant wait to see you again and get one of those amazing hugs see you again some day my friend i will always miss and love you ....love Lyndsay Sylvestre

Amanda its been two years sense you left this earth you made a great impact in many peoples life including my own i dont no if you hear me but i talk to you alot i miss are talks sitting in the back of class and emailing each other about whats going on with us both i miss the way we made each other smile my heart goes out to you where ever you may be and i cant wait to see you again and get one of those amazing hugs see you again some day my friend i will always miss and love you ....love Lyndsay Sylvestre

My name's Shelby Day, me and Amanda went to school together at Prhs, and she went to culinary with my mother, you were a great friend. In the end I told you to hold in there and just push through it. .you tried so hard but in the end you couldn't take it. I love you. I miss when you, me, Kelly and Dani would hang out after school because all of our boyfriends were best friends. .I love you and when I think about you I can't contain my saddness. You gave me the best advice and was always able to put a smile on my face. you'll always be in my heart love<3

amanda cota shot herself after being bullied to a point she gave in...take a stand world lets stop this hate

Hollie A

11 years ago

She is a beautiful girl i dont know how anyone could even say anything mean to her look at her!! Just stunning!! but i do know know what its like to go through what she was going through i was bullied most all of my life and many times wanted to die to leave the pain behind but i somehow fought through it and i wished she could had done the same but she is in a better place..we really need to stop all the bullying people!! God bless to you and ur family sorry for ur loss!! whish i had the chance to know her beautiful angel she is!!

Hollie A

11 years ago

She is a beautiful girl i dont know how anyone could even say anything mean to her look at her!! Just stunning!! but i do know know what its like to go through what she was going through i was bullied most all of my life and many times wanted to die to leave the pain behind but i somehow fought through it and i wished she could had done the same but she is in a better place..we really need to stop all the bullying people!! God bless to you and ur family sorry for ur loss!! whish i had the chance to know her beautiful angel she is!!

Hollie A

11 years ago

She is a beautiful girl i dont know how anyone could even say anything mean to her look at her!! Just stunning!! but i do know know what its like to go through what she was going through i was bullied most all of my life and many times wanted to die to leave the pain behind but i somehow fought through it and i wished she could had done the same but she is in a better place..we really need to stop all the bullying people!! God bless to you and ur family sorry for ur loss!! whish i had the chance to know her beautiful angel she is!!

Hollie A

11 years ago

She is a beautiful girl i dont know how anyone could even say anything mean to her look at her!! Just stunning!! but i do know know what its like to go through what she was going through i was bullied most all of my life and many times wanted to die to leave the pain behind but i somehow fought through it and i wished she could had done the same but she is in a better place..we really need to stop all the bullying people!! God bless to you and ur family sorry for ur loss!! whish i had the chance to know her beautiful angel she is!!

amanda cota shot herself after being bullied to a point she gave in...take a stand world lets stop this hate

katie

12 years ago

carnt beleive you died you was so young and beautiful

yesterday sweety i did a stand agenst bullies...this will be our second christmas apart..to me this one is harder then last year....maybe cuz your sister moved out and the house is so empty....i caught myself yelling out AMANDA COME HERE looking down the hall..waiting and praying that i beenin a 2 year nightmare and i awoke..and you come out of the mandy cave..ur room..i swear i hear your music playing through the door at times louder then ever...i tried baking you fav cookies yesterday snickerdoodles.. but i burnt them.. you where the baker..i bet you making god fat as we speak with all ur goodies u make..i found out hwen you left you shared a few gifts...a young man in texas recieved bones to rebuild his foot he almost lost in war..i have to giggle thou to think of a grown man with your little stubby toes..hope he paints the pink..giggles...well i will stop here..and you know mommy loves and misses you so so very much....but i have hope that sonn one day we will never have to part again..you wait for me kiddo..i love you my little mouse!!~mom~

I went to Pleasant Valley School with Amanda. She was always kind and funny. Always such a joy to hang out with. She loved to give her all in everything she did. And she also loved to teach others her trade. She loved taking care of her sheep and showing them at the Mid State Fair. I remember one year she put every penny she got for selling her animals to restoring the older building that used to be the school. But that was how she was, selfless every chance she got. Overall she was an amazing person and i was extremely shock when i found out what happened. I was also very confused as to why someone would want to do that to such a sweet and innocent girl. As for the ones who did this, they shall receive there judgment through God. May God be with all her family and friends. --"Precious in the sight of the LORD is the death of his saints." Psalms 116:15 -- May she forever rest in peace

I went to Pleasant Valley School with Amanda. She was always kind and funny. Always such a joy to hang out with. She loved to give her all in everything she did. And she also loved to teach others her trade. She loved taking care of her sheep and showing them at the Mid State Fair. I remember one year she put every penny she got for selling her animals to restoring the older building that used to be the school. But that was how she was, selfless every chance she got. Overall she was an amazing person and i was extremely shock when i found out what happened. I was also very confused as to why someone would want to do that to such a sweet and innocent girl. As for the ones who did this, they shall receive there judgment through God. May God be with all her family and friends. --"Precious in the sight of the LORD is the death of his saints." Psalms 116:15 -- May she forever rest in peace

I went to Pleasant Valley School with Amanda. She was always kind and funny. Always such a joy to hang out with. She loved to give her all in everything she did. And she also loved to teach others her trade. She loved taking care of her sheep and showing them at the Mid State Fair. I remember one year she put every penny she got for selling her animals to restoring the older building that used to be the school. But that was how she was, selfless every chance she got. Overall she was an amazing person and i was extremely shock when i found out what happened. I was also very confused as to why someone would want to do that to such a sweet and innocent girl. As for the ones who did this, they shall receive there judgment through God. May God be with all her family and friends. --"Precious in the sight of the LORD is the death of his saints." Psalms 116:15 -- May she forever rest in peace

I have never meet or seen her but what i have read about her May GOD bless her soul rest in heaven and give her parents patience .The last thing i would like to say that you are really great parents who have such nice daughter .And salute to u both of you how you have bulit a character of you nice daughter.May GOD bless you. Regards,

I sat and looked up at the stars last night and just talked to you. The in pact you left on me has made me grow i love you amanda and you will always be alive in my heart. I hope you know now that you are truly an amazing person and i will see you again some day some how

I sat and looked up at the stars last night and just talked to you. The in pact you left on me has made me grow i love you amanda and you will always be alive in my heart. I hope you know now that you are truly an amazing person and i will see you again some day some how

Meet You At The Gate writen by Barbara Bailey A beautiful garden now stands alone, missing the one who nurtured it But now she is gone, Her flowers still bloom, and the sun it still shines, But the rain is like tear drops ,for the ones left behind, The weeds lay waiting to take the gardens beauty away, But the beautiful memories of its keeper are in our hearts to stay, she loved every flower even some that were weeds, So much love she would plant with each little seed, But just like her flowers she was part of Gods plan, So when it was her time he reached down his hand, He look through the Garden searching for the best, That's when he found Amanda, it was her time to rest, It was hard for those who loved her, to just let her go, But God had a spot in his garden, that needed a gentle soul, So when you start missing Amanda, remember if you just wait, When God has a spot in his garden, She'll meet you at the gate....

few weeks ago i seen the bubble gum pink dress we would of bought for the senior prom...it would of been funny not having ur teeth match it this senior year since you had braces on for 4 years..oh can see you in it you hair all curlied that takes us hours and by the end my fingers r sticking together from all the hairspray..lol but i love every min of it..i also seen the perfect dress today for your graduation..even thou as tiny as you are i know that cap and gown will swallow you up..lol...they asked me to attend it but i passed..for i just could not bare being at your senior graduation without you..they made a section in the senior year book for you by the seniors class..they all love you so and miss you they asked me to write something..but this beautiful lady wrote the perfect word...you love her stuff since you love writing and reading poems..your sister is doing better, she taking on such big loads with school and work..and she never home..but i know you will get her in line and show her the right paths cuz you love your big sister very much and i know she misses you so much..dad is doing a bit better he very busy trying to stay at float...i found your lost ipod..lol and when i charged it the screen saver popped up and it said."blondes have more fun" it made me smile and i felt you smiling also..i hear you and feel you all the time and it lifts me..i still have my sleepless nights but im mom always the worry wort right?..well im going back to school this fall to design school to change my career..so i can move us to where we always talked about and build our house we picked out 3 summers ago so you can have as you called it you tower room..and we will make sure it painted pink!!!i met a wonderful lady on facebook.. and she always stating how my words lift her but in all the right ..joni lift me...funny how that works huh..she raising money to do relay for life..its something i said one day ill be healthy enough to walk and do..who knows maybe joni will do it again with me!!!..well i love you baby..and momma does not breathe with out you in my breath..be with aunt penny tueday when she goes in for surg..she needs her tiny angel by her..i love you mannie

Im so sorry about your loss. She was beautiful.

as the days gp on, not a day goes but i dont think about you, every time im in my car playing your i pod to all the crazy songs.. all the talks we had or just having sleep overs in each others room.. knowing some day i will be with you again just puts a smile on my face i love you sissy,,

My Condolences!

It took me a long time to say something about what happened to Amanda. and maybe it has to do with the quickly approaching anniversary of her death but the emptiness isn't quite as bad as it was before. I probably don't have the right to say I am still grieving, or that I still feel the pain of her leaving us, and even if it overstepping my bounds I just wanted to say that I miss her so much, and I'm so sorry for not being there. I have so many memories of Amanda, and I regret letting my own problems cloud my friendship with her, I wish I had stayed in touch with her after I had left PRHS. She was such an amazing person, and she was the first to ever make me feel appreciated, she had this gentle way of distracting me from everything going on around me. She gave me my first Valentine ’s Day present, left a rose laying on my desk. I knew it was from her, few people cared enough to do anything like that. I miss her, and it was cowardly of me to wait so long to face the pain of saying so. I hate that I was able to escape her absence while everyone else had to face the sharp reality of it. I know that a few word won't add up to anything, but the only thing I can say is: I loved the beautiful person you were Amanda, I loved the way you could light up a room or that smile you'd get when one of the guys teased you. I miss you and I always will. Everything I could say has been said before only better: Amy says she's all alone Says the world doesn't even know About the pain she hides inside Says happiness is just a lie Smell the roses throw them down Just whisper, don't make a sound Don't want the world to know the truth You've been broken and abused...by you And Amy says I see you laughing at the rain that hits your face With your arms stretched open soaking in the love In a world I found so hard you finds so beautiful There's a hope in you deep inside for me The colors of her mind Bleed into each other And as the morning melts the night And the stars enchant another While her eyes are still held shut She can hear you breathing softly Your words echo in her mind And your words are clear And she knows that you are here You are here I see her laughing at the rain that hits her face With her arms stretched open soaking in the love In a world she found so hard she finds so beautiful There's a hope in her deep inside for you I see her laughing at the rain that hits her face With her arms stretched open soaking in the love In a world she found so hard she finds so beautiful There's a hope in her deep inside for you

as amandas mom..i like to pass on how i get through the days..i do so but thanking god for the 16 and half years i had amanda with me..those memories get me through on the days that one day trys to come back into my head..amanda was so funny there are so many thing she did and stories that over come that day...i speaded her ashes in the ocean , being three things she loved to travel and see different places..second she love writing notes in the sand and i want those who need a good friend to listen to them go there and write to her ..she a good friend..and the last reason being...the ocean is the substance of the world ..so i know she is with us everywhere,, the earth we walk the air we breathe the tears we cry....i was blessed to hug her that morning and tell her i love u and her tell me the same back...thats a hug of a life time and i feel her hug me through out my daily doings and sleepless nights..if u let her u will feel her too..she loved all

Caroline Soto

14 years ago

she was one of my best friends and i miss her dearly, but i kow that she is with me everyday :) watching over everyone she cared about.

If life was a dream you'd be here with me laughing hand in hand smiling for all to see if life was a dream together we would grow old still making future plans forgetting years stole if life was a dream sun would never fade alone darkness simply surrenders to the love you have shown if life was a dream no tears would fall from my eyes no prayers would go unheard true love could never die if life was a dream I'd be back in your arms kissing your sweet lips safe from all lifes harms if life was a dream I'd never feel alone pain would not exist for you'd be home if life was a dream no plans would be betrayed love would shower everywhere no need to be afraid if life was a dream why would I need sleep? when I have you by my side and your heart to keep. I love you so much Amanda I will see you soon, love Taylor

Rozz

14 years ago

Amanda would go all giggly and teary eyed reading that, it's very sweet.

If life was a dream you'd be here with me laughing hand in hand smiling for all to see if life was a dream together we would grow old still making future plans forgetting years stole if life was a dream sun would never fade alone darkness simply surrenders to the love you have shown if life was a dream no tears would fall from my eyes no prayers would go unheard true love could never die if life was a dream I'd be back in your arms kissing your sweet lips safe from all lifes harms if life was a dream I'd never feel alone pain would not exist for you would be home if life was a dream no plans would be betrayed love would shower everywhere no need to be afraid if life was a dream why would I need sleep? when I have you by my side and your heart to keep. I love you so much Amanda I will see you soon, love Taylor

i remember before i moved how me amanda and kelly went to a new years eve part. Amanda was upset over a boy so i did my best to get her mind off of it and we were together the whole night and had fun i will always love Amanda and miss her dearly- i miss you lil one

I always remembered amanda as the sweet young innocent girl. Whenever she had an issue we would talk about it and i would give her the best advice i could give. i would wipe her smearing make up which was always so perfectly done and let her cry on my shoulder. We talked about so many things i wish i could of been around her more. i want to say so many things but when i get lonely all i do is close my eyes and i know she is around. she is around us all.

I was in the 7th grade and Amanda in 6th grade, i was leaving for the summer and she slept over the night before i left. We snook up to my rooftop with our little blankets and just talked and stared at the stars. It was there we could have sworn we saw a shooting star and wished we'd be best friends forever. I still remember that night like it was last night, May 9th 2004. we froze as well! The day i came back she slept over again, i talk in my sleep and she had woken up before me and i woke up to her laughing at me. she said "you said 'i miss you' in your sleep, I missed you too rozz" We also became creeped out by Care Bears since my niece had millions in her room which we slept in that night. the next week i opened my locker to a creepy little Care Bear signed, 'Love, Mandii' hahah