i wish i could come up with all the right words to say. I cant believe its been 5 years. It was also terrible that this year St. Hedwigs isnt even open anymore for there to be a memorial mass. It saddens to see how life's gone on and less and less people seem to take a moment today and think. I can't say i think of you everyday, we only somewhat knew each other, but you are always in my heart, and today is all about you, reflecting down here, and you party up the heavens tonight for us down here <3

It's 2012.... a long time from the last time we last I saw you. Amazing how life just flies by....we grow older but you...you never get to....But I get to step back from reality and remember the good old days... high school.. the most we ever had to worry about was what to wear...who our friends are... who are we dating... where are we gonna sit for lunch hahaha I just wanted to let you know that I haven't forgotten about you. I was thinking about cellphones the other day and what ones were in style or the most popular.. from razor to iphones... and i remembered you and your chocolate phone. you loved that thing. i remember listening to music with you on the bus to the indian reservation thing that we went on during Ms. Whitneys class trip... that was a blast! I think sitting in English after your death was even harder not because the seat infront of me was empty.. but I couldn't look into Ms. Whitneys eyes...you could see the hurt in her eyes.. I remember our crazy english assignment with articles... idr exactly what we did but i know everyone was stressed from it! everyone skipped classes to finish it... sitting on ms. murphys floor pasting stuff to our board with jess. ughhh did we hate that class! I remembered when you got your bellybuttoned pierced and had to do situps for gym... haha Or when you cut your hair... it wasn't the straight long blonde hair look anymore.. then you curls it.. and eventually went brunette. it was nice to see you grow... but I will always remember the big hoops earnrngs.. or all of your phat farm and hollister clothing....your pale skin (like mine ... which reminds me when we got burned at camp fosket in 8th grade and froze to death during relay for life that night.. but thats a diff story...) and your beautiful white smile! RIP Amanda

THIS IS FOR YOU AMANDA I HAVE LOST A LOT OF PEOPLE IN MY LIFE BUT MOSTLY THE LAST 5 YEARS AND YOUR ONE OF THEM. I HAVE CRIED MYSELF TO SLEEP AND THOUGHT WHAT COULD'VE BEEN IF YOU COULD STILL BE HERE TODAY BUT I KNOW YOU WOULD BE SUFFERING AND IN PAIN SO IN SOME I AM HAPPY YOU ARE SOMEWHERE SAFER WHERE YOU CAN REST EASY AND WATCH OVER US ALL.

ok this prolly makes no sence yet but does anyone by any chance know what amanda's favorite flower was ... i have a really good idea that would be even better if i knew ... and this has impacted my life so much i mean we never really knew each other we just went to the same church and i talked alot to your sister but it means so much just to know someones there then not and it reallyas a big deal , yesterday i finally had enough couragetosay i want to go down the road i want to be there ... so meadmy best friend went and its good to knowthatevnyears after the tragicaccdent people still care so yeah even though wedidnt know each other i still miss you and love you

amanda i juz wanna tell you there in heaven that i never had meet you but wath happend to you is soo sad im always crying about it.. rest in peace. yarilis!

There so much i could say about Amanda...IV known you for over 8 years and i still cant believe that i cant just pick up the phone and txt you stupid things lol I used to love making you laugh and picking on you the same way you would pick on me. Ill never forget the time i was in a rush to get to class and i struggled to get my locker door open and as soon as i get it open you giggled and then kicked it back shut on me..i wanted to scream but knew you were trying to be a pain, its ok i still love you. I always think about the funny times we had together because it helps with the pain of loosing you forever. Im stil thinking about you and always. I love you! xoxo

amanda .. i miss you more and more every day and there will never be a day i dont think about u and just say damn .. i miss that girl .. im so glad i have the memories that i do becuz i kno the re are a lot of memories ppl wish they had with u .. and evbery memory is bruned into my brain .. including the day u left us .. its a day that no one will ever forget .. esp your family and your cosmo girls . that news hit me like a ton of bricks.. i just want another chance to see u and talk to u .. i see laineyy sometimes we have fun together she reminds me soo much of you and it breaks my heart .,. ,i remembr the first time i walked into your room after u left and it took m y breath awway .. i love yoiu i miss u . i love you forever brittany rae

Amanda Pearl Martin, We may have not been the best of friend or even considered friends but you were in my shop and we were all sisters and it hurts to lose someone that close i wish i could walk up the stairways to heaven and bring you back home were you belong. I miss you soo much and that day we found out that you were in that terrible accident all i could do is cry. i remember when you did my hair extensions. they came out sooo beautiful and i remember that day like it just happened yesturday. cosmo was never the same without you and graduation was worse cuze you couldnt be there to graduate with us. the empty sit was filled with flowers from our love to you. you will always be my guardian angel and my hero. everytime i drive my car your the first thing i look at. When i drive i always know your there to protect me. and make sure nothing happens to me or anyone else. Please keep watching over every single one of us and i will see you someday again I LOVE YOU ANGEL your the prettiest angel up there. Love you always, Courtney B.

Damn Amanda, Its been so long, idk how i have been gettin thru all these problems without being able to talk to you and get your advice. all i keep thinkin about are the good memories, like goin camping, the movies, chillin at my aunts gettin prank calls. lol And cant forget goin to the mall with you to get your Halloween costume only a week before your accident.. i miss you so much girl!! forever and ever in my heart! Kirsten