Mga Paramdam Moment ni Jr: “Nea, ja gali kaw? (bla bla bla bla) Ano mong number? Akon hay 0917-75-75-75-9. HEHEHEHE.. Tuod taran.” –May 2005 Gaisano “Nea, ano pamahaw jan sa inyo? Pwede ko kagto jan?” –May 2005>> “Nea, ta, kaon chowking.. Dal-a si ______ & ________. Tapos tan-aw ta cine” -He proposed to me. >> June 4, 2005 Gaisano Cinehan “Nea, pwede magbuyot sa imong alima? Left or Right? Pilang minutes? Hambala ko kung pwede ron ha. Pwede ron? Thank you gid nea ha. >> June 4, 2005 Andagao “I love you.”>> Smiling face, shivering lips, hoping eyes.. June 4, 2005 Times before his death: “Ma, daw unga timo”>> He was always telling this to me because: 1) I always asked him questions that for him are simple.. But truly, I doesn’t know the answer. 2) I act like a child 3) I tend to think and decide immaturely 4) Bagulan ako “Ma, kupkop. ;(” >>He always tells this to me especially when he misses me or even we're together and when we are far with each other. “I love you ma, mayad lng ma nagtiyaga kaw sakon”>>He told this on our last Saturday night together. “Ma, pabay-I ang ginahambal ibang tawo, ang importante okay kita”>>He reminds me of this whenever some people are meddling around. “Si Jehovah ang gajudge, bukon it sanda”>>He encourage me to trust in Jehovah to handle our problems with other people. “Ma, lapit lapit lamang gid ang paraiso”>>He mentioned this to me a hundred times before he died. He always tells this to me to remind me of the urgency of spreading the good news to the people of Jehovah’s promise. “Ma, maasawa kaw kung mapatay ko?’>>He asked me this question few times from the start of his illness up to his death. He knows the answer. “Matthew 24:34” This was the last bible text that he broadly explained to me. “Ma, Buligi ako.. Buligi ako ma” ;( These were the last words of Jr to me. Those were some of the Jr’s words to me. Pa, from the start, ONLY the two of us REALLY know everything what was happening between our relationship. You told me everything you experienced since you were a child until we got married. You shared to me every heartaches, pain, happiness and enjoyment you encountered. You mentioned to me some of the people whom you are closed to. I was so happy and proud being your wife. You contributed so much goodness and knowledge to my life. You’ve always wanted to teach me everything I need and want to know. You had MUCH MUCH and MUCH patience to me. You persevere for me. You were the Major Part who helped me changed for good. For 5 years of our being together, you assured me of your LOVE to me ALWAYS. You proved to me that you LOVE me the MOST. Your greatest influence to me was about my SPIRITUALITY. Sadly, you left me after overcoming our hardships during our adjustment period. We were not able to continue what you planned for us days before you died. But despite what had happened. I'm Thanking you for everything pa. Everything you left to me. “Ma, indi maghambal, obraha lang”. I know words are not enough to express everything my heart would like to say. Just like what you’ve always been saying to me, I will try my best to show all my love for EAEL and help them draw close to JEHOVAH (not only by words but with ACTIONS). You told me that Paradise Earth that Jehovah promised is very very near. Im longing to see and feel you in the coming new system. Im sure that you are also very eager to see us, especially EAEL. I love you so much papa. Your love will always stay in my heart. Jehovah promised to keep every tear that drops from my eyes in his bottle. I can feel Jehovah’s Comfort. As well as the comfort of my family, relatives, close friends, sisters and brothers in the congregation. “Mangunyapit” or “TAKE A TIGHT HOLD” to Jehovah’s hands is a very great source of my strength now. Deep from my heart, I thank everyone who helped and support JR and the rest of the family during his illness until he was buried. I appreciate every single help everyone did. Mapa -Emotional and Financial support. I hope that just Like Jr, we should get more closer to Jehovah even stronger as the days of the wicked system comes to end. I admire JR for his strong Faith to Jehovah. We are already on our last minute to the end. Instead of spending our precious seconds of time to non-important matters, we should buy those opportune time to help other people and especially OURSELVES to grab the chance to live in a peaceful new world, PARADISE. That's one way of showing our love to Jehovah. And personally, HIS promise of raising JR from the dead is the one helping me to stand and continue living with a strong heart and mind.. Papa, I fully trust in Jehovah in seeing and hugging you in PARADISE. I love you so much. ----mama

he always had for me the best tips in the correct moment... he is a good friend and a better brother... we feel sad but we know we will see you again in the paradise and there we'll never stop smile, we'll never feel sad again. I remember when we played years and years ago I was only three years old when we met and I enjoyed every minute that I stayed in your house with you and your family, is difficult to express feelings in other language :) but everybody knows how much I apreciate you and now I just want to see you soon and give you a really big hug. Thanks for helping me in hard moments..we miss you so much

mabait sia masigasig na bata at very respectful..see you in paradise

I am soo....sad ng nalaman ko na wala kana,masakit din isipin kc nga napakabata mo pa,ni hindi ko manlang narinig na nagkasakit ka tapos bigla nalang nalaman namin na patay kana.sayang at hindi kana namin makita sa huling pagkakataon pero toto JR im sure na magkikita tayo sa paraiso!But we will miss you.and we love you very much!

ELMER JR by: Nick B. Banquero 11-23-10 Everyday your Life’s Memory will linger in Every hearts. Wherever you are, we will Remember the good times that we had. As you Join in God’s holy place, we will Remain steadfast in our FAITH. Indeed, in every season, there is always a reason. A time to be born and a time to die... We will miss you toto jr.

Elmer Tabia Villanueva.. he's been a cousin, a brother, a buddy and an adviser.. ahai.. i remember pag ga bakaxon aq sa kalibo, always ga computer c tito toto, after nya gumawa ng mga school works & other stuff, tinuruan nya q gumamit ng computer at mag play ng games nya.. after nun, pag may bago xa nalalaman about sa comp, nakikishare aq.. super nagkiclick kmi pagdating sa computer.. naalala q pa nung burial ni nanay rosing tapos nasunog ang talipapa, nagkasalubong kmi ni tito toto kasi naghahakot nga ng gamit dahil sobrang natakot kami sa sunog, ang unang bagay na binitbit nya nun from BDPI, ung monitor ng computer, tapos tinawanan nya q kc ang bitbit q ung stuff toy q.. until now indi gd dali i'accept nga uwa ron kaw nong.. ikaw pa ang topic sa house.. kmi ni kae gahambal nga wala na chance ang condition mo pero still ga asa kami nga maging ok ka pa ag mabuhay dahil naghambal c mommy nga daw ayos ka man before imaw nagbalik it kalibo.. tapos nag adto c tito mark ag ginhambal ang natabo sa imu.. wa gd ta kmi katulog, nag adto kmi day ng lolay, idto ron c ng zeal.. ag nag scan it pitures mo, then nag abot day ng jet jet, ng lynlyn, uncle boy & aunt nening, pati day ng karen, cle nonoy & aunt baby ella ag mj.. haaaay :'( lisod mabaton dahil gani bata ka pa nong, to think nga abo ka pa it maobra, tapos baby pa day EA ag EL.. NONG, WHEREVER YOU ARE, I HOPE YOUR HAPPY & CONTENTED.. YOUR MEMORIES WILL ALWAYS STAY IN MY HEART FOREVER.. I LOVE YOU MY MUCH TITO TOTO.. I ALREADY MISS YOU SO SO MUCH..

Even we are not related by blood...but sa katagalan na nagsama kani ni manang Ezz ni JR in work naging close din sila sa heart ko. permi kami ga lunch sa anda ag si Jr man permi man gaagto kay manang na sa office kaya parang namonitor ko rin ang pag bibinata ni Jr hasta sa nag asawa na maw. si Jr pa ngani kon amat ang tagasaka it santol ag indian mango kon mag agto kami sa andang balay kato para magkaon, there are a lot of things happened na parang tenitake for granted lang. until dumating ang time nato na Jr passed away...then i realized na na develop na pala sa heart ko na parang part na sia ng family ko...feeling ko no'ng nalaman ko, parang nawalan din ako ng kapatid...sakit man but we have to be thankful to God for His good plan... JR nawala man ka man on earth, your memories remains in my heart...we will be missing you...

when i still used to work in BDPI in 2000-2001, i seldom see toto jr...but the vey first time i met him...he just smiled and nodded to recognize me...we never really had that much memories but every time he comes to visit boracay, he would always bring stories to tell with his sister lolai...they would laugh together and lagi nya binibiro...i said, mabait na bata and sweet na kapatid...I can only count on my fingers the time we had conversations but toto jr. took a place in my heart...palangiting bata, though hindi magsalita, you can see the sincerity in his smile na masaya din siyang may nakakausap at bagong nakikilala... I received a text message from ate guy this morning about what happened to toto jr..I dont know how would i react but i can feel something in my eyes that is about to fall but i manage to hold it up coz i was actually in a beauty salon...i blinked my eyes many times trying to dry the tears while texting back at ate guy...i remember when i opened my fb last monday, naglagay pa ako comment sa pic nila ni bhing.. I qouted: "si toto jayr na ba to bhing? Sultero na sya!". I never imagine that this morning, i will received this very sad news.. I was about to go home but i decided to go to an internet cafe to be able to send my condolences to the bereaved family and i saw this link on bhings fb... i browse with the pics of toto jr..the silent, timid boy i used to know is now just a memory to me, to his family and people whom he knew...To, your smile would always linger in my memory that somehow, though we never get the chance to know each other better you let me knew that by your smile, i gained a new friend in the person of YOU....thank you...

Ginausisa namon kaina day Jas, Des, ag Panpan ang itsura ni JR. nahambal ko gid man, To bugtaw! the first time i looked at his face while he's handsomely tucked inside the coffin, gusto ko gid imaw pukawon hay maisturyahan pa tamon! gusto ko konta nga kang tuesday ngato hay mavisit sa ana. gusto ko abi nga owa ako it ginaisip nga mga urubrahon pa kung magbisita dahil kung mag-istoryahan kami hay long playing. abo imaw it istorya. but i never get to do that. and i so regret not visiting him and seeing him alive... there were just so many things that i wanted to learn from him, to ask him... the last conversation we had, before he went to manila, owa gid kami nag-istoryahan masyado. he was in pain. sakit kuno ana ulo ag tiyan. so the times we had together, bitin gid. there is so little that i know about him. pagsugid lagi sakon ni jonalyn nga namatay si toto (nerbyos ko pagkita ko nga imaw ang gatawag sakon at 6am), owa lagi ako nag-grieve, delayed reaction gia as always, but i felt how boring my life would be from then on dahil owa ron ako it maatinong kaistorya mag-uli ako sa kalibo. hay. he helps in keeping me sane you know... lately, i still find myself making it a point nga istoryahon imaw as if he's still there, ga-kompyuter... before i bought my pc, grabe pa tanang konsultasyon sa ana. when i finally bought one, imaw gid una nagburn. nagburn kami it cd's it new kingdom melodies nga pagagamiton ron kato sa kingdom hall. he explained to me how viruses could destroy a computer. i got scared. "To, masamad akon computer!" "Indi abi it hadlok nang." may problema ron man ngani ako sa akong computer ag may gintudlo maw sakon nga daw di ko sure kung natandaan ko gid man... kung may pamangkutan man abi akong iba, si toto jr man dayon andang ituro... imaw lang man abi ang nakaintindi man with the things that i would like to do with the computer. hay. Now I wonder how our conversations will be like in Paradise... By then we will have all the time to just talk ag hopefully, indi ron matak-an kato ang akon mga manghod maghinulat kung anong oras kami matapos istorya agod makauli ron. i haven't thanked him for these. then i guess, there continues to be a lot of things, a lot more now, to look forward to in the new system of things soon coming, and for each new day which makes waiting worth the while...

a beautiful, amazing fallin' star, because whenever we see you, you never fail to put a smile on our faces. nong JR, though wala akong much memories of you, I've still got to know how great you are as a person by what others have told me. as mom said, just now, maara ka gid sa mga tawo nga kilala mo un though indi gid deep nyong pagkakilala. i have no stories to tell, cause we never had a chance nga magbond, nevertheless, i know your a good person, spiritual, loving and a caring one. no one could ever forget you nong jr. you've left so much happiness to each and everyone in any way you could. we all know that your happy and peaceful where ever you are right now. and for us here, we're all happy for you too. things will be alright, for our families will help hands to make each others strong. you'll always be our FALLIN' STAR! a great One. We LOVE you nong. WE'LL MISS YOU ALWAYS!

Parang last week lang kita last nag istorya.. pareho sa tanan, nakibot gd ta kmi day Hidden, nang Hannah and Jai.. Tama si Ave na amazed gid kmi sa ana pagbati namon dati nga gnkanta na ang bible verses, nag ask pa ko kay nanay kung sin o maw.. owa ko pa maw kilala that time.. next namon nga bonding kang high school na dahil naging batch mate kmi sa ASU.. naging close kmi kang igto kmi nag istar ni hidden kag nixon sa house nanda sa galido.. tandaan ko pa dati may project kami sa trade drawing, bongga kmi that time dahil one of the best gid amon tatlo nga drawing (ave, me and nixon) ang ending si toto jr ta gli nag drawing.. hay kabay.. hehe! after graduation owa ron kmi hingan nagkita.. asta naging sanda ni annea, naging witness pa ako sa wedding nanda.. I remember that time makita ko gid how happy si jr maski sanda lang kato ni mommy.. maski naugot ako sa ana dati dahil sa haran gani but kung makita ko ron imaw wa na nagadula akon kaugot dahil puro lang by kadlaw anang obra mag istorya kmi.. hays. last time ko nka bonding c toto a week before kmi magpanaw sa UAE, last week lang. pag abot nakun sa manila nakibot ako sa anang itsura as in nag niwang maw unlike sa last namon nga kita.. daw indi nakun ma explain kung ano akon ma feel sa ana.. but he's still smiling man gihapon nga daw owa lang.. pina ka indi ko malipatan sa ana nga ga surunlugan kmi about sa food.. kung magkaon ron bay kami nami amon sula ojan lang maw gatan aw sa amon tapos gina sunlog nakun maw pirme "hay to kaon ron, ano pa tana mong ginahulat" diet na kasi siya non abu2x run bawal, si mommy or si annea ga prepare it anang food nga wa man it lasa.. kaya one time kami lang sa table hambal nana sa akon "jing libreha ko it lechon kawali'" hambal ko sa ana hay himus ron jan ang pamanaw ta.. hambal na basta indi mo pagsugid kay annea kag mommy ha.. tapos kadlaw kami daywa..kunta ginabaklan ko lang imaw. :-( gahambal pa maw kay hidden nga next year lang imaw makaon it anang mga gusto.. may times pa naglagaw kami sa MOA enjoy gid ta kato c toto maski kapoy imaw.. kag last time namon nga istorya ang sa room kmi nanda kaugtas kami ni hidden dahil sa laom namon Nov. 7 amon flight, nov 6 it gabie ron namon nasayran nga Nov. 8 ta gli.. samtang ga ugtas kmi imaw man tana hala anang kadlaw sa amon.. hambal nana "hay paano bay kung owa na ninyo nasayran, nag agto ta kmo sa airport" garbe ta kato anang kinadlaw sa amon. last night pa kato before kami magpanaw idto pa ako nag tulog sa andang room.. kag last night namon kato nakita nmaon maw sa 7eleven nakausoy it delimon dahil ga sakit kuno anang tiyan.. atleast maskin isot nga time nakabonding namon kaw to.. gusto man namon nga ojan kmi pra kay annea kag sa mga kids.. to annea, just be strong gd kag always pray kay Jehovah.. neang you know, ja lang ko pirme para sa imo. kmi tnan ja.. toto, we will miss you gid..

As a child - so naive I remember him as a very quiet and shy boy but is also playful pag nagkahulihan kayo ng loob. He would always cling to his mom's skirt when in public, showing his cute lopsided grin kon gina mueo...he inspired many kids when he started reading the bible at congregation meetings at a very young age, his head hardly seen behind the speaker's stand. i chose the icon above bcoz i remember when they first bought a kawasaki motocycle....young JR would always race downstairs everytime he hears the sound of their "motor" ag magsaka dayon sa motor...hehehe...si uncle edsel na anang gina amig para pasakyon maw... As a young man - so full of potentials! Although still shy, he exudes self-confidence at the podium. When he delivered his first public talk in Banga West congregation, most of us felt so proud of how our shy little jr has emerged from his shell...his talk was well-researched and well-presented, proof of how he values the privilege given him...some of us were teary-eyed that time...i remember some in the congregation saying "hara eon do masunod nga maging bethelite sa aklan"..... unitl a major change came to his life... nevertheless, we shall always remember toto jr the way he is ...my baby brother in aklan.