Poison-Every Rose Has Its Thorn Video Lyrics

Adaptable, eager, confused – so much like myself You longed for a place of true acceptance, often stumbling blindly through the wrong places Inventing yourself for others, never finding the ones you belonged with, and quickly losing sight of everything beautiful you had I saw inside you, no matter what you told me A kind heart, a gentle spirit, programmed to impress yet sometimes overpowered by your inner self and unable to cope with him Never afraid to hold up a mirror for a true friend or offer a cryptic advisory guaranteed to bring a smile to a discouraged face So much of what you have said plays back to me, and I see that look on your face Your eyes shining with brilliance, slowly turning to desperation and sadness; your half-smile pretending all is well, longing for someone to care as much for you as you did for them, to offer you the words you spoke so freely to others You must have saved so many lives, but no one was there to save yours – I guess it’s true that life isn’t fair I am so sorry for ignoring what you needed, for not standing up for you that night, for not listening to you when you tried to reach out – I failed you so badly It brings me both comfort and sadness knowing I climbed out of the same pit you had fallen into, since we fell in so close together It almost feels like your sacrifice saved me, shocking me back to reality – my guardian angel pulling me from despair I know you are an angel since I saw you in my dream, all in blue, faintly shining like a distant star I miss you in my dreams, I hope you’re keeping busy and that you haven’t forgotten about me like it must have seemed I forgot about you when you needed me I am so thankful for everything you have helped me to become I still miss you very much, and think of you often – always different things Our long distance cell phone conversations, the series of random events we never got to complete, your story about the twins, drinking too many energy drinks and feeling sick, the interview on your phone camera, our walk to Humpty’s and what you said, and of course that night That fateful night where you said your life changed direction, because you saw that some of the people you cared about would turn on you so easily – I still hate him for that, he was so ignorant When I saw those pictures projected at your funeral – God, that was hard – it looked like a good time, but I knew the whole story If I could go back to that night and just shut him up at any cost, you know I would I was so caught up in my own depression at the time, too busy faking my own happiness and trying to remember who I was before I lost myself I am still recovering from that time, six years later and after finding a loving man and giving birth to my angel on earth – my son But that’s no excuse, because you never made one when a friend needed you, even though you had tragedy in your life too So many of my biggest mistakes have been caused by a lack of action, and this could be the biggest one of all I wonder if you would still be here if I had shown you I believed in you, because I did – always You were so much more good than bad, which is more than can be said for most, especially in the circles we were surrounded with at the time Sometimes I look back and I can’t believe where I was, and that I was able to find a person like you there I wish I could have found the strength that eventually found me in time to show you that there is so much more we could have done You could have been here with me, free of all the past, if you wanted to be With your intelligence, spirit and integrity; you could have done anything you wanted All you needed was someone to show you how How to let go of the fear you felt, how to realize that all good things take time, how to see the people around you who loved you rather than the ones who didn’t care, how to live for yourself and not always for others Generosity took its toll, and I found out too that if you only give to those who refuse to give back, nothing ever changes I think that knowledge was too much for you, since you wanted to see the good in everyone I just looked at those last few pictures of you again, my heart hurts That’s not you, with all that sadness in your eyes, looking hopeless and empty and utterly defeated, as though the world as you trusted it to be was ripped from your grasp forever, your reality altered by some grim realization you would rather leave this world for than accept The Sean I remember meeting all those years ago was different - beautiful and shining with optimism and free - almost like a child It is the greatest shame in the world that the light within you faded and died because of those around you who failed to nurture it That light was a precious gift to everyone who knew you It is still a precious gift to me, even as a memory I will never forget you, in darkness or light, you will always be in my heart I love you very much my dear friend and now my guardian angel – SJL ~ 7