Dear Yanyan,
Tears still flow when I think of you. I miss you so much recently! I have already left NICU and sometimes Yanyan I wonder, if you return there to visit us, I am no longer there. I have started the midwifery training this October, which originally should have started last April, when you were still with us in Bed 40. That March I thought I was leaving, so I bought you the “praying bear”, hoping it will accompany you instead of me. I was disappointed when I knew that my training was deferred. The only good thing about staying is that I can be with you. Now I feel very blessed that I have chance to stay with you until we properly say goodbye.
This week, in the training, I’m learning about the baby’s head, which reminds me so much of you. I remember the two little horns you have on your forehead we used to laugh about. In fact, they have got names called frontal eminences. Your face comes to my mind while the teacher goes over the structure of a baby’s skull bone. I remember your round big eyes and the look of your face on that stormy night when you found that Papa and Mama have returned to stay with you. You looked so happy. I was singing to you and holding your hand to kiss but you slept so peacefully. I really felt lucky to be able to be there with you that night. Even the time was short, I believe we made good memories.
Dear Yanyan, I know you must be laughing at my stupid tears but honey, I do miss you very much. Till we meet again.