Dear Yanyan,
Tears still flow when I think of you. I miss you so much recently! I have already left NICU and sometimes Yanyan I wonder, if you return there to visit us, I am no longer there. I have started the midwifery training this October, which originally should have started last April, when you were still with us in Bed 40. That March I thought I was leaving, so I bought you the “praying bear”, hoping it will accompany you instead of me. I was disappointed when I knew that my training was deferred. The only good thing about staying is that I can be with you. Now I feel very blessed that I have chance to stay with you until we properly say goodbye.
This week, in the training, I’m learning about the baby’s head, which reminds me so much of you. I remember the two little horns you have on your forehead we used to laugh about. In fact, they have got names called frontal eminences. Your face comes to my mind while the teacher goes over the structure of a baby’s skull bone. I remember your round big eyes and the look of your face on that stormy night when you found that Papa and Mama have returned to stay with you. You looked so happy. I was singing to you and holding your hand to kiss but you slept so peacefully. I really felt lucky to be able to be there with you that night. Even the time was short, I believe we made good memories.
Dear Yanyan, I know you must be laughing at my stupid tears but honey, I do miss you very much. Till we meet again.
Dear Suet Yee,
Thank you so much for writing this note, it has given me the assurance that little Yanyan was not only missed by her family, her friends miss her too.
When Ling told me about one of Yanyan's 護士姐姐 has written a note on her website, before he said anything else, I knew it was you, the image of your smiling face appeared in my mind. And guess what, when I told my husband aboutyour note, he said "oh, I know, she gave Yanyan the praying bear, didn't she?"
Your note has brought tears to our eyes, but it also brought back warm and loving memories of Yanyan and all the caring doctors and nurses to our mind. It is such a wonderful reminder that even though the time Yanyan stayed with us was so short, she was blessed with so much love.
I am usually not good at remembering names, but I wanted to remember all Yanyan's 護士姐姐s' names, because I hope someday when we have the big reunion party together with Yanyan, I would be able to call out your names like an old friend without asking Yanyan to introduce you guys. Suet Yee, you have a really beautiful name, and an even more beautiful heart!
Thank you!
每當夜深人靜的時候姑姑喜歡到這裡來，看看恩恩的照片，聼聼恩恩早已聼出耳油的歌，很熟悉的感覺，好像又回到了恩恩的床邊。
姑姑回來以後，一切仿佛回到了原來的狀態，可是姑姑知道一切都不再一樣。給你唱《Jesus loves the little children》的妳的三個小表姐，現在姑姑每一次擁抱她們的時候，都會想到妳，可愛的恩恩寶貝。每一次捏著你的小小表姐小卡胖胖的手臂或是大大的腳丫時，姑姑就會忍不住想起你白白又嫩嫩的小手和小腳。。。
姑姑常常想：恩恩笑的時候是什麽樣子呢？ 抱著恩恩的感覺是怎樣的呢？還有許多許多姑姑錯過的。。。相信，將來有一天姑姑終將會看到恩恩甜美的微笑，姑姑還想看見、聽見妳像小姐姐那樣開懷地大笑，還有我們相見時的擁抱，姑姑也很期待。姑姑相信我們在地上錯過的所有快樂時光將來都會被加倍地補償。在我們分離的日子裏，姑姑會努力，成爲像照顧過你的醫生（叔叔阿姨）和護士姐姐們那樣，帶給別人溫暖和關愛的人。
寶貝快兩歲了!
Mom Dec 29, 2010
My memory
melissa Jul 16, 2010
恩恩，妳好嗎？
Chow Suet Yee Jul 01, 2010
我們分別竟然有一年了。恩恩寶貝，妳在天國過得還好嗎？有否想念我們？我可想念妳呢！妳的一歲生日我都記得呀！總是想起妳胖胖的腳跟手和妳看Teletubbies的樣子。恩恩，請在天上為我們加油！但願我們很快會再見！
My memory
媽媽 Jun 28, 2010
今天正好是妳離開爸爸媽媽一年的日子，真不相信已經一年了。爸爸媽媽還有姐姐每一天都是那麼想妳。想到妳的眼神、哭、笑、還有觸摸妳的感覺，一幕幕的都如同眼前剛剛發生。有一次，媽媽做夢還見到妳插著那討厭的呼吸機，醒來時覺得很心痛。還有一次，媽媽夢見把你從小床上抱起，妳趴在我的身上睡著，醒來時媽媽高興得不得了，還想把這個喜悅告訴大家。 不管夢境是好是壞，媽媽都不想那麼快醒，因為我想能有多點的時間和恩恩在一起，越多越好。 雖然爸爸媽媽相信恩恩現在會很好，但是，若能願望成真，爸爸媽媽還是想把妳和大姐姐從天國接回來的。
今天，媽媽和小姐姐去了寶馬山幫恩恩放氣球。我們放開氣球時還在下雨，姐姐很擔心氣球會被大雨打落，又被樹枝纏著飛不到妳那裡。她還告訴爸爸在飛機飛到空中時找找給妳的氣球呢。
我們每個人都很愛很愛妳，小寶貝！真想緊緊地抱著妳！
想妳想妳非常非常想妳
大声地喊你的名字：恩恩~
姑姑 Jun 27, 2010
好久不见！你和我们分别整整一年了，还是想你！你在地上生活的短短日子，留给姑姑的可远不止那块带有你味道的小毛巾和这些可爱的照片哦！
你在天家早已安顿下来了吧？！我们在世上的人即使用尽所有的想象力可能也很难准确地描绘天国的样子吧，因为这个原因，也因为不知如何想象恩恩现在的状况，姑姑有时也会觉得很困扰。
恩恩，昨天姑姑和姑父带着你的三个表姐游览了上海世博会，她们都为各种奇形怪状的建筑和美轮美奂的灯光动画啧啧称奇，姑姑就想到恩恩住的天家应该比世博园里的任何建筑都美上千百倍吧。
三个小表姐逛世博把脚都逛痛了，临睡时姑姑给她们脚底按摩，哈，按摩--这个恩恩最清楚有多舒服了，对吧？！ 晚安！（心想：天堂也分日夜吗？不过这里是凌晨了，所以姑姑要睡了)
恩恩也为爸爸打气！
媽媽 Jan 30, 2010
Happy Birthday, my dear little Yanyan!
姑姑 Jan 03, 2010
今天是妳在這個地球上的一周歲生日, 姑姑這個星期一直在期待這一天的到來, 因爲迫不及待地想和妳說"生日快樂呀,恩恩~!"
恩恩,姑姑多麽希望能帶著你的三個表姐飛到你的身邊和妳一起慶祝這第一個生日啊! 那該有多熱鬧! 寫到這裡,我好像聽到妳奶聲奶氣地對我說:"姑姑,我在天家的每一日都過得好開心好热闹啊!"
嗯, 姑姑知道了, 那恩恩妳一定也聽到了我們為你唱的生日歌吧!
恩恩, happy birthday on your 11th month!
姑姑 Dec 03, 2009
程程在睡前說她永遠愛著妹妹, 她告訴我恩恩已變成了透明的, 恩恩仍在我們身邊和我們一起生活。 你知道嗎, 小姐姐看了許多的fairy故事, 她用她的魔法棒把小恩恩變成了透明的。 無論是真是假, 聽了程程的話後, 我的心確實覺得舒服了很多呢! 多麼希望恩恩能在身邊和我們分享每一天的快樂… 在天國的恩恩, 生日快樂! 爸爸媽媽和姐姐永遠愛你!
Yanyan, I miss you!
Chow Suet Yee Nov 04, 2009
Tears still flow when I think of you. I miss you so much recently! I have already left NICU and sometimes Yanyan I wonder, if you return there to visit us, I am no longer there. I have started the midwifery training this October, which originally should have started last April, when you were still with us in Bed 40. That March I thought I was leaving, so I bought you the “praying bear”, hoping it will accompany you instead of me. I was disappointed when I knew that my training was deferred. The only good thing about staying is that I can be with you. Now I feel very blessed that I have chance to stay with you until we properly say goodbye.
This week, in the training, I’m learning about the baby’s head, which reminds me so much of you. I remember the two little horns you have on your forehead we used to laugh about. In fact, they have got names called frontal eminences. Your face comes to my mind while the teacher goes over the structure of a baby’s skull bone. I remember your round big eyes and the look of your face on that stormy night when you found that Papa and Mama have returned to stay with you. You looked so happy. I was singing to you and holding your hand to kiss but you slept so peacefully. I really felt lucky to be able to be there with you that night. Even the time was short, I believe we made good memories.
Dear Yanyan, I know you must be laughing at my stupid tears but honey, I do miss you very much. Till we meet again.
姑姑 (Nov 06, 2009)
小恩恩...
欣欣姐姐 Aug 16, 2009
恩恩你好，我是Trace叔叔...
Trace Jul 21, 2009
好想妳呀，恩恩
姑姑 Jul 21, 2009
姑姑回來以後，一切仿佛回到了原來的狀態，可是姑姑知道一切都不再一樣。給你唱《Jesus loves the little children》的妳的三個小表姐，現在姑姑每一次擁抱她們的時候，都會想到妳，可愛的恩恩寶貝。每一次捏著你的小小表姐小卡胖胖的手臂或是大大的腳丫時，姑姑就會忍不住想起你白白又嫩嫩的小手和小腳。。。
姑姑常常想：恩恩笑的時候是什麽樣子呢？ 抱著恩恩的感覺是怎樣的呢？還有許多許多姑姑錯過的。。。相信，將來有一天姑姑終將會看到恩恩甜美的微笑，姑姑還想看見、聽見妳像小姐姐那樣開懷地大笑，還有我們相見時的擁抱，姑姑也很期待。姑姑相信我們在地上錯過的所有快樂時光將來都會被加倍地補償。在我們分離的日子裏，姑姑會努力，成爲像照顧過你的醫生（叔叔阿姨）和護士姐姐們那樣，帶給別人溫暖和關愛的人。